day 3 is here- OMG!!!!! if i can do this YOU can too!

[smartgirlbadecisions]

wow, you guys i am crying tears of pride and joy right now. i cant believe i have done this. i know its really early on but i feel like i have climbed mt Everest !!!!!! i honestly dont even feel that bad and i can already feel my endorphins coming back slowly but surely. i am just straight up ignoring the fact that my legs are restless and my skin feels tight but i am SO doing this!!!!!!!!!! sorry i am just so happy i am so so grateful for this website, i dont even know how i found this blessing. i thank the lord for this opportunity. i want people out there that arent sure if they should make the jump, just DO IT!!!!!! i honestly forgot how to live a sober life, and thats what scares me the most, but everyone tells me that as long as i dont use pills and take care of myself, life will do its job, GOD will make my path... we will be guided by forces bigger than us. as long as we do NOT poison ourselves. man, i could ramble on and on, as i only have you guys to talk to about my accomplishment. thank you all so much... god bless u all
(oh, and my emotions are a roller coaster by the way, two hours ago i was crying my eyes out and so angry-but i took a hot bath and now i feel a lot better)
sg

[mtdorashane]

Congrats BIG time!!!!!! Think of it like this you never get rid of an addiction u switch it for another one... U have to find something u like to do and become obsessive with it .   Mine was mountain / road biking it's been almost 20 months and I bike almost everyday it has truly saved my live... Stay strong the worse is over !!!

[ImDONENoMore]

Hey there - just wanted to chime in and say I think it's great that you're staying so motivated and enthusiastic about your decision to quit.  Well done.  :) (oh and remember you're going to hit some highs and lows for a while yet so expect those low moments okay?  It will make it easier if you know what's coming).

Keep going - and stay strong!

[smartgirlbadecisions]

changed my name :))))))))) we shall continue our convo tomorrow. i am having bd sweats tonight. i think i got so excited that i forgot about my wds for a second but they are surely here still... but im not letting it stop me. i can deal with this physical stuff. i keep counting on my one hand my five reasons for quitting
1. i am a good person
2. i have a good heart with love to give
3. i have great friends and family
4. my life IS worth living
5. things will get better

i keep repeating that over and over
when i get the urge to find and use i just repeat those until it passes. it has really helped. i sure hope i am helping people out there

[Free2agoodhome]

Oh that's normal...I was like that...opiates was sooooo central in my life..I used for any occasion  good or bad..heck laundry was a good excuse.

When I felt weird and not knowing what to do...I would just say to myself ''do the next right thing". Whether that meant,,,do the dishes, pay a bill, run an errand  etc...I kept doing that untill the "next right thing" I was doing normally.

The stresses that used to be there may/may not change...the cool thing is YOU are different. Healthy decisons/choices take practice...I read somewhere if you do somethin for two weeks straight it will become a habbit.  Give it time,.,,,You have a small set of tools now to deal with stuff............... this site, therapist etc. Make you tool box huge, whatever that means to you.Then you will be ready for anything big or small.....

You are on the threshold of a new life. What you did takes courage. The decison was yours to make. You made the right call....

You need a new name:  smartgirlgoodecisions

I think my "next right thing" is to take my a$$ to bed....lol

Gnight

Free~

[smartgirlbadecisions]

i know...as soon as i posted it, i got really bad sweats but i know it was just fear. fear is my problem. i am just being brave. day one was the worst for me so i really hope it just gets easier and easier. thank you free.

i have a question though, i honestly dont know hot to live. i am scared of that. i am expecting to be extremely bored a lot. but should i just start doing a routine? i fear that i dont remember how to live normally. i always would do a pill when i was stressed out. i need coping techniques. i dont see my therapist until this coming thursday. he is going to be so happy to hear that i actually am DOING IT!!! :)))))

[Free2agoodhome]

Well look who's doing it....
Your post makes me smile big in remembrance. Don't over do it :-)...Be good to yourself right now,,,you're on the mend,,,,,,

You are doing fantastic on day 3. Great work...
I really agree with what you said about "letting life do it's job"..It was by no accident you found this website,,,,me either......but I'm glad I did,,,,

Rootin for ya,,,,,,,,

Free