day one

[mitches]

I had 1 pill left  yesterday around noon and that's the last of them...
Sooooo I'm on the couch freezing, trying to make myself get up & move but have no motivation! I've been taking hydro 10/325 for about 2 yrs now usually 5~8 per day.
Last night was probably the worst night of sleep I've ever had, I guess I'm here for support. I can't continue to live the way that I have!!! I'm a stay at home mother of three great kids & I feel terrible for doing this to them, myself & my husband.
My husband is very supportive, but being home all day alone has to be the hardest part of the w/d so far! Nobody knows about my problem, and I don't want to reach out to family and friends...

[mitches]

I took immodium about an hour ago & just ate something for the 1st time since Sunday night.
This is SO tough!   I feel guilty for complaining though... There are so many people in the world that are severely ill and can't do anything about it & here I am, self inflicted misery!  
Its going to be a long day I'm afraid...
Thanks again to you all for so much support!  

[shrimpman]

I found that liquid imodium does the trick for the runs-----It's great to see all the support you are getting----there are many wonderful people here and they helped me when I needed it------Orion----i've been following your progress and I am so happy you are making it through this-----Best regards to all, Jon

[Orion5611]

LOL
I'm so proud of you! I drank almost an entire bottle of pepto over the weekend! : ) Plus a lot of ibuprofen! I'm glad today is better! Everyday gets easier! Keep up the good work my friend!!

[mitches]

Well, after a good nights sleep (thanks to ambien)  I wake up with the WORST let's say " stomach bug....I know you all know what I'm getting at.  Trying to get the kids ready for school from the bathroom has been interesting to say the least!
So far today I don't feel terrible.  Much better than yesterday actually! Heck I made it from the couch to the bathroom already this morning! Lol. I guess that's a start :)
I'm supposed to have a meeting at school today with my child's teacher.... Are you laughing at me yet?!?   We should take bets on how many times I need to excuse myself to use the bathroom!!!
So, at noon I'm at 48 hours....  

[Gettingcleanagain1221]

Hey mitches, you are doing great!!!! Keep it going today on this new wonderful day. The only thing that I would warn against is using the ambien after at most a week. Being the addict I am......which sux......I got a huge addiction to those after I kicked the opiates a couple years ago. For some reason quitting ambien was even worse for me but each person is different. You will get thru this and the world is a much better place when your mind is clear. Have a great day and keep on trucking! :-)

[mitches]

Worried~ I have read through the health pages, but briefly... I do plan on reading more as soon as I feel as if I can retain information again!  I read it and its as if I'm staring at a wall right now. Congrats on getting thru the w/d on your own! That must have been so difficult.
I do plan on going to meetings & surrounding myself with positive influences.  Thanks for your support! I need all the help I can get right now.

Oakie~ you do have a rough road ahead, but don't let that keep you from doing this!   I'm lucky to have found this site & posting today has really helped a lot! Keep posting & stay strong!