I can't believe I'm this upset!!

[catmagnet]

I was going to go to bed about 45 mins ago, but i'm too upset to sleep. My husband is acting like a total jack***, it's all over $$$$ that i have nothing to do with. Now i'm afraid I'm gonna take more pills tonite they're looking mighty tempting right now. I hate to ruin the progress i've made so far over his greed and his stupid ****!I drive a $400 car, i worked a real ****** job to be able to afford even that and i've never complained about it. Does anybody have absolutely no support from spouses or am i the only unlucky one? I swear, I'm about to go on e-harmony or something, actually his scuzzy friends would jump on me in a heartbeat ( not that I would want any of them anyway)IDK what to do, I'm at my wits end with him. I took our wedding vows seriously, but I don't think God wants me to be miserable for the rest of my life because I made a poor choice. If he thinks $$$$$ is more important than me, maybe I should open my eyes. I'm sorry for venting like this on you guys, I'm just so upset I feel like crying, I can't understand why he treats me this way, I treat him like a king!

[catmagnet]

Yeah, thanks, I forgot about that trick... it's worked before.

[confused456]

Hey I wanna join this club.....well I don't WANNA join, but I hear ya all. And, Cat......****, you're hot as hell woman!! You said you look like me.....LMAO

[VicUser]

You know, if you laugh enough you stop being mad. Also, if you walked up to him and gave him a big ol smoochie kiss and then walked away you just confuse the %^$% out of him.

[catmagnet]

I'll get over this, just when I get mad I STAY mad for awhile. At least I didn't give in to taking more pills last night, except I did take a 100mg trazodone, but I'm not addicted to that, if I had taken more vics I would have been mad at myself, too!

[catmagnet]

They must be related to him somehow...hmmmm...=)

[VicUser]

Remember, Larry, Daryl and Daryl? You just never know.

[catmagnet]

Hey that sounds like a good idea. I'll overturn some rocks and trees when I go on one of my hikes in the woods, maybe there's a good one in there! Kidding, I don't really hate guys, but there must have been some inbreeding around here ( I wasn't born anywhere near the area I live now ) come to think of it, everyone around here looks the same except for me, thats why my pic isn't on my profile, just in case! LOL But I think you're cool, not immature, one day I'm going to find my husband in a corner sucking his thumb and watching reruns of Barney!!!  cat  =)

[VicUser]

Before you switch sides, not all guys are jerks. You just hve to look under the right rock!!

[catmagnet]

Sorry , I 'm probably havin' a mid-life crisis  ( 39? ) yeah, right!

[catmagnet]

I wasn't really serious about the e-harmony thing, I'm starting feel like I don't like guys at all... maybe I'll go the "other" way...

[opi]

ok,,,i got a say something here....i've been reading a few threads and it seems to be th4e women having a rough time...well i'm in the same boat....somewhat...i'm the guy that is sobbering up and dealing with an angry spouse...she said we need to have a sit down just as i left for work,,,not a good thing to have on the mind....anyway i don't think that leaving someone then hookin up right away is cool.....if you are leaving your spouse,,do it for you,, not because you think someone else will be better...e-harmony...doh!....if you feel like yu're settling then go but if you think you are going to end up settling if you go...then you're fuckked and making a mistake...think about it before runnin....i kinda said this to wife tonight...the woman that i've lost in my life have always tried getting me back but that offer is never there for runners...i sort of warned wife of this and that i might not be available when this is realized by her....i think if she runs now it is crewl and mean and don't think i'd have her back because she ran cuz the going got tough...toss 13 years away for a fook up....well excussssse meeee!!
also said that if she wanted out and now has  a real excuse then go but you might end up finding out there is no better out there.....................i don't know ......guess i'm saying becarefull of what ya wish for because your wish might be a schoolgirl ilussion.....it just aint there sometimes....that's all......lol....i can't sleep.....wife came to bed and i got agitated so i got up and thought i'd sleep on the couch and be a hard ***...i think i'll be crawlin into the bed....couch's suck.....   i do agree that some guys are just goofs and if this applies dump the prrick

[marcatj]

hon.. if you're that miserable, and he's that horrible to you, leave him.

you don't have to stay with someone who makes you so dam miserable.

ya got one life!  and it's a choice to be heppy...

good luck..

[catmagnet]

I think i'll give this bed thing another try, thanks for listening to me...

[catmagnet]

I just checked out you're profile not sure what you meant about the karaoke thing. Does that mean that you can't sing or what? I've always noticed that people in church avoid sitting right in front of me ( i KNOW i can't sing) LOL  cat=)

[catmagnet]

Pretty much sounds the same, except i think our situations are reversed. He doesn't have any money, we've always been pretty poor, but I never cared as long as everyone is happy. Like I said I drive a $400 car, actually an upgrade from the $200 car we used to have woo-hoo! He's just p****d because he just found out that a "lawsuit" he was trying to pursue has no credibility-- I tried to tell him that when he was starting in on it, but he wouldn't listen, of course. His whole family on his mom's side are so g*****n greedy it makes me sick! Why can't people count their blessings instead of trying to keep up with the Joneses?  GRRRR!  HISSS!! MEOWRRR!!! Now you know why I call myself cat!

[LONESOME]

It sound like you and me are in the same boat lol, I just had a fight w/ my husband well is been a week and a half for me we haven't spoke for that long and we did now just to end up not speaking again and one of the reasons is money to he says that all I want him for is his money he has a good job and has to give me 1200.00 a week for bills he knows how much we need for bills and it equals that amount plus my part and still he always throws it at me like I spend everything on me or something, so yeah I think we need to sign up right now on e-harmony lol

[catmagnet]

I know my mind plays tricks on me all the time thats why I decide to do this you guys have always been very understanding and sometimes it helps to talk. I can't afford a shrink right now, and even if I could, it takes weeks to get in to see them! Usually by then I feel better so no point in going!

[catmagnet]

I think I'll try to come up with pics of myself and post them , instead of hiding behind that standard restroom door symbol they have for us here, except for maybe a few extra pounds, ,I'm not half bad for a lady my age , Ive been told that many times by everyone except my OWN husband. **** on him if he doesn't appreciate me, I'm about to kick his *** I am fairly strong and could probably do it... I'm sorry guys, I just had to tell someone about this when I get upset is a dangerous time with the drugs, many times in the past I've taken pretty high doses at a time hoping I won't wake up the next morning...hope ya don't think I'm crazy, I'm not, just VERY UPSET right now!!!!!

[enemy48]

Can he be rational at all right now considering what you're going through?

If not, don't let him tempt you.  Really, if you think about it, it's just your brain tricking you to think that taking pills again will make your situation w/hubby better.  Be careful with that.