Someone PLEASE tell me this emotional stuff improves!

[Gonnastop]

I seem to be getting waves of emotional distress where I become an emotional trainwreck and no matter what I do I can't shake the regret and self loathing.  The missed opportunities come flooding back. My life has drastically changed thus past month and I guess since my brain is thawing out I now have to learn how to deal with that

I'm questioning my career, where I live and sometimes my faith and I'm so very scared. Is this normal?  You guys/gals are the only ones I can talk to about this as my wife is so tired of this and I don't blame her at all.  I'm only on day 8 and know this is still very early but someone throw me a lifeline here.

I know Kyle is gonna send some tough love and I do respond well to that but my nerves are shot, I have very little fight left in me and I'm just so scared that I've blown it with God.

[Bunny78]

Congrats on getting sober! Don't feed into the negative thoughts, dwelling only makes it worse. Take it one day at a time and focus your energy on things that make you happy right now. You're going to be overly sensitive for awhile, very normal. You've been numb for so long and now you feel everything, it can be overwhelming. This will pass. If it doesn't start to improve then seek help.

[candy_17]

Congratulations on your recovery!!! That's great, very proud of you and you should be very proud of yourself as well:) What you're feeling I also felt and I'm sure many others did too. It's normal in recovery to regret bad choices we made while in active addiction. If you didn't feel that you wouldn't be normal. Just know first of all you can NEVER blow it with God. He is a merciful God that knew every decision you were going to make before you even made it and yet he still loved you enough to die for you and he says we can come boldly to his throne to obtain mercy! That's pretty awesome to me and makes me very thankful for his mercy. It's always refreshing to hear of someone so humble to think they don't deserve his love because none of us are deserving but yet when Jesus took on our sins on the cross he made us deserving only through him, so don't let that be in vain for your life, accept that gift graciously and walk in his love and forgiveness and remember you're a heir of Jesus Christ and destined to have all that your hearts desire. Focus on the good things that are above this earth and set your mind to be thankful and happy and I'm sure your feelings will catch up very soon. Be blessed and keep up the strong fight!!!

[otoh]

yup totaly normal.. Just remember it's only a withdrawal induced depression , and don't be listening to the things your head is telling you right now most of it is waaaay over dramatized.  just hang in and know that this to will pass. I heard a saying  once,   that staying inside your head is like going into a really bad neighborhood. I agree. day 8 was a tough one for me in that regard. look on the bright side you are just about free.....

[selfinduced]

TOTAL detox blues is what your feeling. Just knowing this is so normal and will subside very soon will calm you. I felt as you and the tears always wanted to come at the most inappropriate times. I got my most heart wrenching country cd's and would go for a care ride and cry my eyes out. The more I cried the better I felt. You can't speed up this process, it will pass though I promise. If we didn't have any regrets about our use, we wouldn't be human. Important thing is, your on the mend and onto your beautiful life! Chin up!

[Calikid78]

Yoooo kid, why are u questioning ur career? Not that its a bad thong, but I been questioning mine, and I guess mine isnt really a career, either waythoughts like that I think are normal, maybe amplified from tje wd causing more anxiety and paranoia than normal, ill tell you what helped me cuz my heart would fu king race during the day, I would stop and gather myself mentally and start to calm myself and my nreathing and my heartrate would drop, mayne not a ton but enough to b able to calm myself.  Brsathing excercises csn help.

[kyle505]

Ok. Here's the tough love. Stop me if you've heard this one.
On day 4 of my detox from hell I went to get a haircut. Thought I'd get out & move around, as the folks on this forum suggested. When I got to the shop it was closed!  Closed! Oh the despair. I cried all the way home.
I've got lots of stories like these. The drama is high for you too right now. If you keep feeding it like you have been then it will never go away. It will just consume more and more of the time you should be spending on your family.
Maybe it's time to seek professional help.

[Free2agoodhome]

Hello,

Yep  completely normal.  I went through that too.. But do go through it.... I found when I got clean my authentic self,,,who I really am emerged.... Not the Vicodin head big dreamer I pretended to be,,,,it was humbling....

Since the past is done I had to look forward. Only going back if I needed to make amends to someone.

8 days is great ..try not too think too far ahead or dwell on life issues right now. Treat yourself like you're a patient.,...be good to yourself,  you're healing. ... If heavy emotional stuff floods in,...and it does,,,,try to sit quietly somewhere and let it out man,,,,,nothin sissy about it...its healing.

You are heading for a new life,,,own the process it's yours..your story,,,,

make it a good one,,,


Free~