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[stilltrying1965]

I understand if know one wants to support me, anymore. I have failed lost my clean time not with heroin iv been  taking cocaine and smoking weed. Now i give up on myself. I dont deserve your time ,,,,,James

[10356]

Gosh James in the year and some odd months I have known you.. Never have I heard you speak like this.. Positive and looking forward with a solid plan forming :) I'm so Proud and Happy for you I have not the words to convey it.. You have come a long ways my Brother and truly I think you are really beginning to see the light and the possibility's.. You are a true Inspiration. with much warmth and much love your sister in our shared struggle.. letakos

[stilltrying1965]

First i would like to say happy 4th july Im doing fine iv been to 4 meetings in the last week
Started to make friends clean one,s So im really happy about that. Iv never beniited from anything like this before, but its well worth on hour of my time Im starting to realise what the meetings are about and the 12 steps. The 12 steps that will save my life. Thank you all for your concern it means a lot to me.,,,,,James

[kittycat1433]

Hey i don't see any post's from you.What's going on are you staying clean?Are you going to n/a? i hope everything is going well for you it just takes alot of time and can be very frustrating i know because i have to try EVERYday to stay clean so if i can do it so can you come bk and let me/everyone know how you are doing.God bless you have a happy4th

[atthebeach]

james,
i have been on this forum since february, i have read many of your posts.
you have been given much advice and i see you writing about praying.
you have struggled for a long time with addiction. have you tried attending a church? many times if we can't make it on our own strength we need to seek the help of a much higher power. please give this a try. you will feel the love, power, strength, help, support and lots more. it seems nothing has kept you clean lean on the everlasting arms of GOD.
debbie

[dominosarah]

You will come out on the other side James....Dont give up!!

[stilltrying1965]

Hey bud every thing you said about addiction and being happy and letting my own family down was spot on, you are right I have to love myself before i can be truley happy. Every word you said is how i was feeling, And the best thing of all it made me take notice I have read this thread a few times but your answer i have read many times, And you are right thats how i truley felt so i know you have been were i am I just pray i can come out the other side just like you did  Thank you all for your answers  And thanks newmanegment,,,,,,,James