I need help..please

[sadinmichigan]

I just need help  Please......

[sadinmichigan]

LMFAO!!!! I'll repost  ...and find that forum....LMAO

[newmanagment]

i think ya have to go to the anchor *** post!!! lol ,ya gotta start a new one, cuz this one takes me forever to get to with all the comments!! sup girl, hope all is good withca situation tonite

[sadinmichigan]

HEEELP.What does it mean when your a$$ is stuck on the computer chair???LOL Do they have a different forum for that??

[sadinmichigan]

I am BACK!!!! and.....charging my phone...Love you...Louise

[confused456]

Louise,
are you back?
Love, Thelma

[sadinmichigan]

I want you to know how much i appreciate you taking the time..I am so glad your alive today..I know i'm sounding stupid but he only hit me a few times..and he was sorry..he was drunk .i know that it's no excuse..when i used to drink...when i kicked methadone..i blacked out several times..i never even did that as a teen..but I also was taking pills,pain and xanax..I really don't want to be with him...i have been sick of things for a long time..but felt i needed to be off drugs to make an accurate decision...There are many reasons..not only comming home smelling like some other b!tch..but the constant lying about everything!! He would steal my pills and make me really think i was crazy and that i just took that many...granted..i got out of control with them in the past couple of years...but i thought i was losing my mind..i would cry to him and he would be sooo sympathetic (spelling)  and let me think i was crazy..That hurts me more than anything..I tried sooo long to get help..never pulled any punches..always was honest and knew i was having a problem..it got even to the point where he made me believe my kid.(son) 1 of 6..was stealing them..that hurts me more than ANY f'ing thing..he let me blame my kid(he's not the father of my oldest 3)...ok i need to blow my nose..thankyou honey...really.. Lisa

[Oxy_Moron]

Ahhh...love! One of the most painful addictions I've ever had. At 16 I met "The love of my life" (like I knew ANYTHING about love or life at 16...!). I married him at 19--my bad. He was an abusive, controlling alcoholic heroin user who cheated on me and came home drunk regularly to beat me...and those were his good qualities!  I was a teetotaler through my prison time with him as I figured one of us needed to be sober. By the age of 21, I had grown but he had not. He had already put me in the hospital when one night he put away bottle of Bacardi 151 and kicked me in the face. Today I still have a Teflon plate under my eye due to the orbital fracture. He was a blackout drunk and didn't even remember doing it and called my parents house the next day to find out where I was. I still stayed with his dead a$$ till the day he came home drunk for the last time, and I wasn't gonna take another beating. I bashed him over the head with a very large glass snail I had by the door as he came in, pushed him out the door and told him there was a Greyhound leaving for Colorado...be under it. Even with all that, I went through the crying jags, loneliness and even moments of wanting him back. It's hard to to give up on something you invested so much time and emotion on. I felt I had failed at something. But you know what? I got over the withdrawal period, and came out much stronger for it with valuable lessons learned. I knew what I wanted and came to a place that I understood I deserve to be loved, not treated as a stick of furniture or a punching bag. This man has pooped on you in your time of need...to the curb with him!  Not worth wasting your gifts on. These controlling goofballs never change, and he'll only bring you down. I'm sure his hunny will kick him to the curb too because people like that cannot respect themselves enough to love or respect others. That is the foundation good relationships are built on...trust and respect. If you don't have those, you don't have love.

You MUST concentrate on your own strengths, and you MUST get the authorities involved if he is displaying threatening behavior. When this happened to me, domestic laws were very different as it was 1981. The police treated me with an attitude of "Oh it's OK, he'll be home when he sobers up", and left me with a pat on the head. Things have improved since then, and there is a no tolerance attitude today. Yes, for now, the pain will be immense, but you'll come through it a stronger person. I have been with my hubby since '83. He is a kind, thoughtful, wonderful person...the proverbial "nice guy". He treats me like a queen, and would go to the ends of the earth for me. There are plenty out there like him, but we often make the mistake of going with those bad boys who treat us like a bag of s**t, and overlook the real gems that are out there waiting to find someone to treat with love and respect. That would be YOU! For now you need to get through the pain, but there IS a light at the end. For myself, I am so glad I got out when I did because I honestly believe I would not be alive today if I hadn't swept the garbage out of my life. There is an old Janis Joplin tune titled "Bye bye baby" that became an empowering little ditty for me during that time. If you ever find a copy of it, give it a listen. Wishing you the best, and just know, this too shall pass.

[sadinmichigan]

You know...Why the h&ll AM I CRYIN"...?!!! You girls are right..I just think I'm crying more for what my kids are gonna have to deal with. he is a good dad to them...And I cried ALOT soo maybe it's out of the system for today..I don't know if i'm "perkie" LOL but I really like to have fun and laugh..I can be a smarta$$ w/the best of them..I need to "perk up" my kids think I'm crying about my gramma,. i need to pull it TOGETHER..thankyou ..I will be here allllllll night!!!  We are supposed to get 8' of snow...YUCK!!!! I am so sick of cold a$$ winter..I also have to say this...I did get some wine coolers..didn't drink them yet..but it's not vodka. (right) (weak scared smile)  love you xoxoxo

[worried878]

U r sounding a bit "perkier" this afternoon...that is a good thing i think!  LOL

[swtbreezie]

Thanks!  I thought I never would marry again BUT there is life after hubby 1's death after all!  And a divorce is not much different the thing you can do in divorce is call him up and call him everything in the book for the way he treated you!  I go and yell at him at the cemetary but I'm NOT sure he hears me lol he left me holding the bag and I am P^^^^^D!  I NOW tell bill collectors to go to Hilcreast and knock on that door and see if they get paid!  LOL  SAD you HAND HIM THAT D^^N BAG!  aNF TELL HIM IF HE DON'T LIKE IT LUMP IT!
hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
swtbreezie

[sadinmichigan]

Oh thankyou sweeet breezie..And you too mimi..I need to get a grip..crying on the phone w/Thelma  LOL..My eyes are going to blow up!!  I'm so sorry sweet sweet breezie..I know it could be worse..always can..I"m glad you have found happiness. Your words meant so much to me..Thankyou thankyou thankyou..Mimi..you are wonderful too and when Thelmas sick of my crying (JK thelma) i'll be hitting you up next..lol..thankyou ladies..you rock!!! and i love you
LISA

[mimi1313]

Lisa, Breezie couldn't have said it any better. You are wonderful and deserve someone who will see that.

[sadinmichigan]

got your APB>>>on it...sorry..music toooo loud...Luv you..Louise

[swtbreezie]

Honey AIN'T NO MAN worth your tears!  YOu hang in there and tell him to HIT the ROAD!  You wont be alone long, there are many out there who would kill for a wonderful person like you, and you will LOVE yourself again.  I think the hardest part for you would be getting out of it.  I am sad for you sweetie, and will be praying that things will get better for you.  I felt sooooo alone when my hubby passed away BUT I look back and all the rough times was not EVEN worth the heart ache I went through.  I thought I would die of loneliness but I didnt.  I felt he was my whole world and my kids.  Well I lost that world 2 and a half years ago and a month and a half between deaths I thought I'd lose my mind.  I went almost 2 years in morning and finally said I am going to make me happy, there is someone out there for me.  I played the dating game a while and it was fun and fast paced BUT I am a home body and I was a wife and a mother, and I didnt drink so I didnt really care for the constant going and partying.  AND I have found the perfect mate he is like me a home person we love staying home when he isnt busy with the fire dept and work or we just take a ride in the country or have his friend and his wife over to eat and play cards and I am loving it.  I have a new ready made family with his daughter and grand daughter.  This is making me happy, I am no longer alone and I smile.  SOOOOOOOOOOO CHIN UP my friend there is life after HUBBY 1 and I too was married at age 17 a baby raising babies.  Go find someone who appreciates you and doesnt make you feel this way!
GOD BLESS YOU hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
swtbreezie

[confused456]

LOUISE::::::::TURN DOWN THE TUNES AND ANSWER THE TELEPHONE......LMAO!!!!!

LUV, THELMA

[worried878]

Yey...dont get on another bad boat ride with the drinking....but on the positive note u r doing well staying away from the pills...focus on that and maybe get the alcohol out of the house for now.....hang in there,,,u have come a long way girl

[toxictome]

If you had a problem w/ alcohol before...STAY AWY from it!!!

For me, that was a worse demon than pills...
And I agree w/mimi...i don't think you should stillbe throwing up rom wds..that is now probably stress related to situation goin on w/ hubby....

HAng in there...everything will fall into place....did you get my PM?

((((((((big hugs))))))))

[sadinmichigan]

I drank..vodka..I have been on top of that for about 6 months and before that I drink vodka every day for almost a year..started, after going cold turkey off methadone. Thats all i really feel like doing..or the thought of it anyway..it's making me sooo mad. i don't need to trade out addictions ...should i repost..this one is getting long..or let it go.

[worried878]

Did you drink or take pills?   sweetie...hang in there...u can do this...u have come so far...keep posting

[sadinmichigan]

I guess thats probably the reason..I don't know..i'm worried about me too.Not relapsing with the pills..but the drinking thing is becomming an urge..I caved last night with it..And thankfully he is gone right now until 1 a.m.. xo Lisa

[mimi1313]

Lisa,

You have so much going on its hard to tell where normal withdrawal ends and the incidents in your life begin. Throwing up after 16 days is not normal, at least I don't think it is. You need to really try to take care of you and your kids. Get the husband out of the picture for now because he is dragging you down and trying to control you. Please take care of yourself, i'm really worried about you.

Melissa

[sadinmichigan]

and i don't mean to be gross..but i throw up everyday.

[sadinmichigan]

i have a question. Is losing weight part of w/ds..I have lost about 7 lbs..i could probably afford 1 or 2 more LOL but not much more than that..i have always been pretty samll.I am a short little italiangirl 5'.
thankyou cathy..I couldn't do this..especially now without all of you..

[cathy5841]

sweetie, you are going through so much right now.  it will get better.  time is the great healer.  so give it time.  i am so proud of you for not useing through all this.  that shows you are a very strong lady.  you have 6 beautiful children, you are not alone.  God will send someone your way when the time is right.  much love nd many prayers