just starting here

[terpsusie]

Came upon this site and had no where else to go. First day of having nothing. Feel terrible but have been thru this before. Why do I let myself go thru this every month?? I get my scrip and take them all in a week, then end up here feeling like this. It has only to do with the pain in my HEAD....of wanting to feel SOMETHING..ANYTHING but the way I feel about myself when I am not on anything. Please give me advice as I am lost.

[refills]

Hey my bad. Only day 2, taking ativan. Well that's what I took in detox under professional care. You really should seek out a doctor to help you. One that won't give you pills. You should go to your ER if possible. You sound like there is zero direction. No plan while taking pills from your friends. Ativan is in the same class as Xanax. You have a big uphill battle on your hands. Those benzo's are like playing with dynamite. You better listen. Good Luck.

[refills]

Hey susie. Yeah atthebeach is right. I don't think you're taking 40mg of Xanax at least I hope not. Now that you are late into day 4 you should be feeling crappy but if you hang in there you will feel a bit better soon. Xanax was part of my problem and after 10 days I was on my own. No, not done with detox but I was clean and moving forward. Now I don't mean to sound tough on you but you really should just give up on looking forward to your rescue drugs. If you want to be sober now would be the time. Keep posting and stay true to yourself. You can do it. Best of Luck. We are here for you!

[terpsusie]

Maybe I am saying it wrong. The xanax 1's the blue ones. Was prescribed four of those daily. Very high strung person. Took 2 ativans and it took the edge off. Almost six thirty at night and I am always so glad to see night come....its closer to bedtime. One of the few times I am happy is when I sleep. But then have to wake up and fight all over again with the no pills, the panic attacks. I will admit that I still hope my friend makes his way down with suboxone.

[atthebeach]

4 - 10mgs of xanax???
xanax doesn't come in 10 mg pills or sticks.
Xanax is dangerous to come off of cold turkey.
Way worse than vicodin.
How much xanax are you on ?  

[terpsusie]

Still dont have anything, dont know if my friend was able to get a suboxone. Watching the clock. My neighbor gave me four ativan to help me thru the xanax withdrawl. Took 3 of them already. I do appreciate all of your advice here. Being in the second day is hard. What symptoms have you all experienced in withdrawl? Mine is mainly diarrhea, dont want to eat, feeling out of control, RLS, really more of a RBS restless body syndrome. Cant get comfortable. Tapering down on the sweats though. So tell me your experiences.

[TS8777]

Hello, been right where you are at. I am on day 4 and yes it does suck. I actually told my doctor not to prescribe me anymore because I was becoming addicted. It's like doctor day each month was like Christmas for me. I would get my klonopin and 120 Percocet 10mg and eat them all up I. A week sometimes even less than a week. It wasn't for pain anymore it was not even to get high it was to just feel normal. You have got to cut off all supplies. Your doctor and if you buy on the street cut them off too. Maybe if your honest with your doctor they can prescribe you different meds to help with the withdrawal process. I wish I would have done that, I just simply told him not to prescribe me anymore. YOU CAN DO THIS. it's tough but it's worth it.