Well today is 1 week clean! Over the past 19 months I have only made it 7 days one other time. It seems like i usually relapsed on Day 6. I can tell something is different this time, my cravings are less and I feel more at peace with my addiction, realizing I have zero control over it.
Last night I had a dream that I used and I felt so disappointed, when I woke up and realized it was a dream, I was so happy. In the past, I would have been disappointed it was only a dream.
I've been going to therapy and it has helped tremendously with the underlying issues of the addicition.
I am finally past counting minutes, hours and days, now hopefully by the grace of God, I can start counting weeks.