methadone and heroin wd

[Meygirl]

Hi all. Ok so here is the story as short as possible. Im 26 years old sadly i relapsed 4 months ago on H for the 5th time, after 3 years clean. Sad and pathetic. I used every day for that period. I wanted to quit so i took methadone for the first time in my life. I did 3ml per day but then i combined H at night. Then i descovered that meth. WD are worse and take a looooong time. I freaked and stoped and continued with H. I am off meth almost 3 weeks now. And today is my day 9 of full detox. The very bad WD stoped but i still get the chills, sweats, crazy mood swings and also still very weak. I want to know when will it get better. I take this pills to get low pressure they help. But i have never experienced WD longer than 7 days! I need some info what is happening when will it get better?

[EvolverU]

Mey, :)

Yup..

'Tis late, for sure, on this side of the pond (where are you anyways? The pond might be much larger than I'm imagining!:)) Forgive me for the sloppy posts but I'm not on my laptop & have been attempting to write on my phone (something I'm not so good @. Don't want to scare you but my vision hasn't been so hot after detox [just another reason to stop now! :)]). I've gotta' go down soon but I wanted to tell you that I'll be thinking about you & checking in on you (hope you don't mind! :)

I too, believe that everything happens for a reason. (I've made a careful study of it in my life for the past 15 yrs. or so). The thing I also discovered though, is that intentions translated into actions are also a powerful spiritual force & affect the 'everything happens for a reason'. What I'm saying is that if we take no decisive action, things will happen for a reason -- but usually not for the good. I've found that the 'creative force' (or whatever your preferred term is) responds to what we put out there in terms of thought, word & deed..
So, if the past hasn't worked for us, it's time to try a different tack.

I'm glad to hear that you guys have gotten as far as couples' counseling! ;) Good sign.

You sound tired..

What time is it there?

[Meygirl]

Tnx for stiking with me who knows how late it is now where you are :)
I know the chances of H coupels, they are very minimal wev been to a shrink for that and probably go again see what went wrong this time. I am getting clean for me and he for him for now! I am scared but i see a clean future with this person and i want to make it real and him even more.
I am feeling too many emotions now and i dont want to bring them in my mind i just want to focus on me now and then will see what happens.
I think some greater power will gide me somehow.
Everything thats happened in my life has had some kind of reason, and iv been given many chances to life from other friends who didnt and not to go to dark paths just to score.
I feal what needs to happen will happen time will tell.
I dont know what the future holds i just know i want break this H love now!

[EvolverU]

Oh Mey :)

I'm glad that my post made sense to you. That's all that counts. I don't get the chance to post that much anymore, but run on intuition when I do.

I was in several long-term 'opiate' relationships. To this day, I still love them but they were 'undoable' b/c I discovered that I needed to go my own way first. Unfortunately, the stats -- the success rate for H couples trying to kick & staying clean is minute. The data tanks when it comes to two. It's hard enough doing it on your own. The key, I believe is that you neither of you can do it for the other. You both must get clean for Yourselves, first & foremost for yourselves (& secondarily for each other & then family & friends).

You're doing right by staying away from caffeine, alcohol & energy drinks!! Research is a great idea. Commit to your kick & learn, learn, learn as much as you can. Also, the sooner you get off the benzos, the better. They can be as hard a kick as anything & totally mess with your sleep, stress levels & gut!

Believe it or not you're doing wonderfully (I know it might not seem like it! ;) The emotional roller-coaster you're on right now is completely 'normal' & will gradually ease. Stick with it, warrior! Start telling yourself that nothing can tear you down or turn you back. Let's just make sure that your game plan is different this time.

We're here :)

Annie

[Meygirl]

It was benzos, hypnotics, and pills for low pressure which i must be careful but im cuting them down slowly they help me sleep too. I dont drink cofee and nothing for energy just because i dont want to get too up, or should i.
I will reasurch more on the diet and what to eat that will be the best for me.

[Meygirl]

I love your post!!! You just said everything i still feal but now im in the middle. For the first time in my life the temtation is not taking over me, for now, im going to take some opiate block pills after this for some time, mentally they really help knowing that you just cant use, i feel they keep me safe from myself.
I dont want it to take that long its sound like a lifetime:( i want to live free and back on my crossfit and insanity excercises, you actually get a natural high from that, thats what i want at the moment and LOVE. Me and my fiance lost eachother a bit in LOVE. After 7 years a relationship needs work on passion the most.
Well see where this story goes...

[EvolverU]

Sorry!

Your second post wasn't showing when I posted the above. The RLS will abate soon. (Promise! a powdered cal/mag/zinc formula will help with this & it's also slightly sedative). How's the energy?