my bf & i are addicted to heroine, PLEASE HELP!!!

[meggie92]

We've been on and off this $hit for a year & a half and I'm at the point where I don't want to do it anymore but once I start to withdrawl I can't stand the pain & I go right back to it, we don't even smoke it anymore to get high only to get well, a friend of mine gave us suboxone & we were clean for 3 days then our dealer hit up my bf and he fell right back into it & I beat myself up because I was finally starting to feel normal again without any substance and I smoked with my bf, I love him & I'm not mad at him I just don't know what to do anymore, someone please help :(

[jaystr]

Oh, one more thing. You said you are not doing it to get high anymore. Thats how it works with us heroin addicts. We are chasing that high we use to get but we will never get it again. It always turns into just trying to keep yourself well. I know exactly what you mean when you said that. We are just trying to stay well to be able to function. Its a vicous cycle. I wont lie, It still crosses my mind everyday. But the temtation gets easier everyday also. I can honestly say I HATE that sh*t. It ruined my life for a long time. Now I finally am doing good at work again and have a good relationship with my family. That sh*t is the devil!!!!! You have to stop before its too late. Alot of ppl die before they get the chance to stop. I am one of the lucky ones who beat the disease and you can be too!

[akitagurl12]

It sounds like you have reached that HAD ENOUGH & want to stop point which is the most important part, good for you:)  I would read about what you may experience for the first week physically.  I know it really *****, but it helped me to know ahead of time what to expect and a timeframe. The flu feelings usually get better within 5 days when u do it cold turkey.  I tried suboxone before but just had too many side effects to keep it up.  This website is awesome, so just keep posting & reading.  Week 2 and beyond is alot of mental stuff which u can work thru as it comes, but for right now I would just focus on the physcial detox.  And you guys gotta some how cut ties with the dealer.  Delete the number, change your number, whatever u need to do.  Good luck & we are all here for u!!

[jaystr]

Hey, I was a heroin addict for a long time also. I know the pain you are feeling and how hard it is to get off. You have to really want to stop! The best "but the hardest" way to get off of heroin is to go thru the sickness. Its the worst feeling in the world but in a week you will be fine. Methadone works very well, but if you are going to go that route like I am right now, only stay on it for a month then start to taper down. In 2 months you will be yourself again. Suboxen is also good, But again, only stay on it for a short peroid of time. Methadone and suboxen withdrawls are 10 times worse than heroin! I just went from 55mg a day of methadone to 50mg a day. I feel fine. You have to separate yourself from everyone and anyone who does heroin if you want to stop. If you are trying to stop and ppl are doing it around you then you will do it to. I know from experience. Keep in touch and good luck! Message me with any questions you have and support you need.