methadone recovery

[yeti575]

Hi, just signed up so first time here. Hoping I can get some advice. I've just, yesterday, taken my last dose of methadone linctus. Been on heroin and methadone for 20 years, but have been totally stable on meth for 3 now. It's taken the 3 years to get down from 80ml, more through fear than anything else, but I've also been gently pushed by my counsellor. I got right right down to 1ml, which i took for a week. I know 1ml is a ridiculously small amount, but it made a dfference, psychologically. I've now completely stopped and am totally lethargic, no motivation and severely depressed. This was happening even when I was on 5ml and lower. I've got some anti depressants from the doctor, but won't start feeling that for a week or so more.
Basically, from what I have read, it can take 6 or so months to get your motivation and energy back. So my question is, how do you stop your life falling apart in the mean time? I work and am in a band that I love, playing drums is everything to me, but even this is being neglected. What I really don't want to happen is to lose my band and my job and be even more depressed than I am now, if possible.
Are you able to keep up with things whilst doing this or shall I cut my losses and get back to it in 6 or so months?
Any help or input would be extremely appreciated.

[yeti575]

Ive just got back from the gig and nailed it. I sweated like a mofo and my legs ache bad now, but to be honest I feel worse sitting around. If I could've got out of playing tonight I would have, but I didn't want to let the guys down.
All in all, first ever gig straight and I'm made up with myself.
I think it just shows so much of it is in your head

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude  well your coming around fast  witch is a good thing   just know this drug is very cyclic and just when you think you got it beet it comes back with a vengeance  as you progress you start to get more good days then bad....how is your energy???  that was the worst part or me  I was pined down to the couch for months  just know it does and will get better  there is life after methadone  keep pushing forward and keep posting for support   let us know how your gig goes tonight
..........................................Gnarly..................

[Krissy_123]

Yay!! So glad to hear you're starting to feel better. I know at the start of all this you were questioning whether you should just put things on hold for awhile. I bet when you get out there tonight and play your music you're going to be thankful you stuck with it!! Music is what got me through my detox. It almost feels like a certain song you listen to at an emotional time was written for you!! Haha I know it wasn't but detoxing is an emotional time and I felt like I poured my heart and soul out listening to music. You're lucky,you get to actually pour your emotions right into your own music!! Good luck tonight man,proud of Ya!! Xox ~krissy

[yeti575]

I feel really quite good to be honest. I had a session with my band last night which I was dreading and it went ok. Got a gig tonight as well.
Still a little sweaty, but think I'm over the worst of it. The gig will be a big test, as I used to take a little more meth to perk me up for a show, so this'll be the first time straight.

[VICourageous]

Hi yeti!

How are YOU today?
Just do not let that stinken-thinken get You!
Heck, You slept that Long..Wow! That is progress right there.

Plz keep us updated!!

Bless

[yeti575]

Thank you Vicki. Im still hanging in. I slept fine last night. 11 hours straight through and although ive just woken up, think I feel better, but its the 5th day now, so I'm guessing it isn't over yet. Waiting for my brain to wake up and tell me Im still bad.