methadone recovery

[yeti575]

Hi, just signed up so first time here. Hoping I can get some advice. I've just, yesterday, taken my last dose of methadone linctus. Been on heroin and methadone for 20 years, but have been totally stable on meth for 3 now. It's taken the 3 years to get down from 80ml, more through fear than anything else, but I've also been gently pushed by my counsellor. I got right right down to 1ml, which i took for a week. I know 1ml is a ridiculously small amount, but it made a dfference, psychologically. I've now completely stopped and am totally lethargic, no motivation and severely depressed. This was happening even when I was on 5ml and lower. I've got some anti depressants from the doctor, but won't start feeling that for a week or so more.
Basically, from what I have read, it can take 6 or so months to get your motivation and energy back. So my question is, how do you stop your life falling apart in the mean time? I work and am in a band that I love, playing drums is everything to me, but even this is being neglected. What I really don't want to happen is to lose my band and my job and be even more depressed than I am now, if possible.
Are you able to keep up with things whilst doing this or shall I cut my losses and get back to it in 6 or so months?
Any help or input would be extremely appreciated.

[VICourageous]

I am so glad you checked in.
Yes, You sound as if you are still in the physical detox. The sweats are there, as all those toxins are trying to come out from the Skin, Nose, Eyes and by Bowel & Urine movements. Anyway they can come out of our system!

However, since I had used for so so so long I did get complete blood work done. Just to make sure all is ok!

You are just flowing along day by day and each day brings on new hope for tomorrow. This all will pass! Just be safe and keep your Guard Up at all times. The Mental part can be a slightly difficult part to understand, but it will not hurt you. It is just the Brain Balancing back out and all these Emotions come a flowing in.
YOU WILL BE FINE IN TIME!
Bless
Vickie

[yeti575]

Thanks Gnarly. Ive had a bit of a rough day. Wandering around the house looking for stuff to do and immediately deciding not to.
I think I could deal with everything so much easier if it wasn't for the sweating and constantly peeing. Ive read the peeing is a common thing, I was worried it was something more serious at first.

[gnarly_1]

Hi   well I detoxed like you from 150 to 1mg and still went threw the withdrawal it takes about 10 days to 2 weeks to get over the phyical part  then it was the sleeplessness and ''energy crash'' that stuck around for quit some time....it was a good 90 days until I see the light of recovery it is different for everybody so just take it one day at a time keep posting for support we have a lot of members who have made it to the other side.....................Gnarly................................

[yeti575]

Hi thanks so much for your replies.Im doing ok. Very achy and sleepless.Nothing major, but kind of bugging me.Very anxious,seeing my gp today about something for that,as well as being very depressed with absolutely no motivation. Which in turn is making me more anxious as I'm off work this week and have bills to pay.

[VICourageous]

How are you doing today?
Are you still with us?
I too am a X-Doner (prescribed for pain) and X-Recreational users for many, many yrs.
It does take TIME and I mean Time for all the Brain Chems to balance back and for the Body to follow. You will have to hang on to that Patience. I know, it did seem like it would Never get better, but after awhile and a LONG while it did. I am going on 3y and it took a lot of Paitince and Work to finally get here and to finally except Life as it may be.

Right now just make sure you drinks tons of fluids and mostly water to help flush the toxins out. You will go through many stages as you heal. YOU did Taper and that is a BIG plus on your side!! Most of us x-doners stopped at a pretty high does or got down some.
Make your Diet very Healthy. We have to replenish back all them vit, min, and electrolytes that got knocked out during our using. Start taking some good plant based Vitamins and natural Minerals. You can also find some good Antioxidants in some Packets these days to add to water. Pick up some Protien Powder and add some Berries to this. Amino-Acids are so important right now too.
I wish you all the best and hope you keep checking in.
Bless
Vickie

[Heather8448]

I was on methadone for ten years and quit over 2 years ago, though I am in a relapse I still wont touch those ever!
I was just like you no energy, depressed, weak
I kept moving I had a friend push me
I would lay on the becah at night, I went to church and went to after care for me it was NA
I worked steps and worked on me...I stayed busy and eventually I got better
life didnt get better but I learned  to get better
I only relapsed because I stopped working on me and its my fault
give it time