my natural course

[sadinmichigan]

I no longer feel like i can deal with this ****..I know there is no good time to quit doing drugs..but all I can now think of is drinking..which i am doing now at 7:30 am  and filling my RX next week..I know it's not going to help..but that is where I'm at..I wrote a post on the social side about my kid..I am stuggling real hard to keep it together but i feel like I am losing this battle once again..I just need some common sense and truth told/yelled or even screamed at me..I don't want to fail this after the longest 30 days in my life..

[sadinmichigan]

momeluv..thankyou so much i will read them right away!! I need to..Thankyou a million times.I'm am definately in a bring it on mood!!!! i need my head straight on!! xoxo

Wait2long--girl!!! that was f**king hysterical and i thank you so much.I have read that a few times now..Thats a keeper right there..I love the h*ll out of you..!!!! Thankyou.

Newgirl--ouch i felt that..lol but i needed it..

persnick- i love ya girl..i'm hanging in with you!!! i promise..xoxo

[wait2long]

cant yell at ya...all i can say is i love you sweetie...and this will all soon be over, in reference to my PM...its going to happen..you just wait and see...lost you know what..tiki huts..josephine, jackpot...the pedestal....watch and see...
your in my thoughts all the time and you know where to find me...anytime, anyday for whatever reason...

love ya tons sweetie!!!

[newgirl2708]

I slapped ya, but I did it over on the social side ;)
Hope it helps,
NG

[persnick38]

Stay strong. I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. I will pray for your daughter's safety and for you and the rest of your family. So happy to hear you decided not to fill the RX. I need you to keep doing this with me. We've made it to day 31 - no turning back now!

As for the RX:  If you have a written RX, tear it up right now and trash it! If it's a standing RX at the pharmacy, you need to call and have them take it out of the system or have your doc stop it. No reason to have temptation flaunting itself right in front of you.

Here if you need me - anytime.

[sadinmichigan]

thankyou all for caring...for reminding why not to use drugs or drink..and for praying for my daughter..i will let you all know as i find out any more info...Thankyou..

All MY LOVE TO YOU ALL
sad

[bmc1976]

I am so sorry for what you are going through. You and your daughter are in my thoughts and prayers. GoingtoMakeit always words things so well. So please listen to him along with everyone else. You know going back to pills will not help anything. You already know how strong of a person you are. You might have to dig a little deeper but know you can!

[worried878]

I am so sorry...you have had a tough time....my friend who has been sober from alcohol for 5 years started drinking again last week...i did not know her when she drank but in the short time I know why she quit ...that is enough said...I drink as well but I luckily do not abuse it...She had a narcotic problem as well and i dont think she picked those back up...she went back to her first DOC...alcohol...I just hope things get better soon...i will say prayers for you..I know your daughter is missing but have missed alot of this story...is she with someone she knows ,,your daughter?

[confused456]

If you go get that damn script, I personally am gonna drive my a$$ down there and kick yours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I will do it outta love, but I WILL do it)

[TJack]

Hon, i too am so sorry about your daughter.  I am not quite clear on this, is she with her Dad?
As far as the drinking in place of the hydrocodone, or whatever your doc was, mine was vic, or lortab, i can indeed relate.   Only not a morning drinker.  But, 1 glass of wine is never enough now so i know i have traded one addiction for another.   Going  to my dr. on tuesday and will be open for therapy or whatever will help.  I took my last sub 6 mos. ago and i don't think my brain is right yet.  i had only used for 8 mos. or so and 10 to 12 a day.   Stay strong, you can make it.  We support each other here and it is my na or aa.  Please keep posting so we know how you are. TJack

[sadinmichigan]

No the last time her dad was able to speak to her she was around Manteca..but where now?? i don't know..This evil man would most likely not be in a well populated area..more like campground,parks,etc..they have no $ and the original plan was for then to drive toward Las Vegas until they ran out of gas..Tanyas dad tried to gain this mans trust and even tried wiring $ but it didn't work ,then tried again but apparently at the western union place they asked him too many questions that he couldn't answer so the cancelled the transaction..That sent this man into a psychotic rage and this is when he decided not to let her go and the got violent on the phone to Tanyas dad..I know she will somehow get away..but so far..nothing..Thankyou everyone

[Mikeinthesouth]

just hang tough sim and keep us posted.

[GoingToMakeIt]

You go girl! Posting really does help. Let us know if you need more prayer and to keep us updated.

[mommy52713]

lisa do you know where in california your daughter is. i live in cali and my best friend lives in vagas.

[sadinmichigan]

i will not fill my rx

[corey411]

My heart and prayers that your daughter will be safe and you will find the strength to deal with all that you are going through are going out. I know your addiction seems secondary to your situation with your daughter right now and I really can't say that I wouldn't break under the pressure. I have under much less. We can only say that this will not help your daughter. We as well as yourself know using, drinking is not in your best interest and if I could help shoulder some of your pain right now I would. I'm afraid if you begin using right now --pills or booze it will be a quick downward spiral. I lost my first son to a brain tumor when he was 10  and I didn't use then. It was HELL. I had casually used other pills/ booze but kinda more to party in the early 70s...hippie ya know. I don't know why I didn't use then. I never resorted to it when I had a problem but just when I was having fun w my friends. I can think of reasons that I'm glad... I was fully there for my son and my other kids...I delt with the emotions instead of putting the drug bandade on. If you don't allow these emotions to manifest they will not go away. They will posion you as quickly as the drugs. I'm praying for your daughter and for your strength but if you can't make it you know everyone will still be here to help you through day 1 and .......

[GoingToMakeIt]

As far as drinking and even thinking about doing drugs. Is that what will help you when you do find your daughter? Do you want your daughter to be rescued by a mother that has been drinking and is using again? How clear will your thinking be when you will need to make a quick, life changing decision? You know I really care about you but you can't ever justify this behavior for any reason! You need a sound mind now more than ever. Turn to God for your strength. Give Him your cravings. Let Him take care of you.
We all will be praying for the safe release and return of your daughter, Tanya. And that you would have peace.

[sickcookie]

Try posting story and description on California Craigs List ,its readership is pretty amazing just an idea

[10356]

600 mi south of Vegas would put her in southern ca. could be heading for Mexico? Can you contact Baja port of entry to be on look out for car? Your daughter is in my prayers and you are close Limbo

[sickcookie]

I am so sorry your going thru this but please be strong today ,we are all praying that today she will be found !Do they only do Amber Alerts for little kids?Thank you for keeping us posted ,we all care

[JOSHNESS]

hon, wat is ur daughters name so i can pray for her...i kno its not much but i feel it will help

[sadinmichigan]

You are sooo very right honey..Thankyou and I really appreciate what you just said..

[sadinmichigan]

Thankyou ..I know i will get through this without the stupid pills..I am so greatful for all of you..I am considering everything right now..counseling etc...I am already thinkg twice..

[JOSHNESS]

im so sorry i wanna say something that will help u but i kno of nothing...but it seems like this is out of your hands or atleast it sounds that u feel like ur losing control or dont have any of it over the matter.  and i understand u feel like drinking alcohol but forget about everything just for a mere second and thnk obout the emotional poer if u can say to urselff with all the pride in the world"**** YEA I DONT NEED DRUGS OR ALCOHOL TO COPE". and remember this quote cause i dont understand it but it seems full of ummmmm... something that may help u?
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living
until the escape becomes the habit.”

[Penelope14]

SIM, You have been such a inspirtation to me during my detox, & Im not gonna knock ya for drinking or thinking about picking up your Rxs, your behaviors are that of a addict, we all are very vulnerable to relapse, & just because you slipped doesnt mean you cant succeed in your addiction, its not over just because you slipped & drank. You have so many people who care about you on this forum, so please think twice about picking up the Rx,s. Im not trying to push NA or AA down your throat, but have you concidered taking in a meeting? This could prove to be very benificial for you, just a thought. Take Care Penelope