quick question

[wherestheresetbutton]

I'm currently 48 hours Into my detox.  So far its been pretty mild (ill get into specifics later) but after a 5-6 month relapse how long should I expect the "rebound" pain to last?  I kno typically the worst is over after 72 hours, but this lower back pain is driving me crazy.  I have no real back problems (aside from poor sitting posture) and I took the pills recreationally. Any input will help. And ill come back with all the details when I feel I can actually move a bit.

Thanks for taking time to read/answer me.

[wherestheresetbutton]

Been sitting outside, enjoying the calm before a hopeful storm, maybe ill walk to the other side of the complex and buy a water from a vending machine.  Amazing how much daylight makes life easier.

By the way, my name is steven, and I AM an addict.  Without all of your posts, and guidance, I wouldn't be in the mindset I am now.  I thank god for all of you, recovering, detoxing, active, all of you.

[wherestheresetbutton]

I still remember how great it felt to get sober before my relapse.  But I took my sobriety too lightly, and of course fell into the whole "oh, just 1 will be ok".  It seems almost as I lost track of my sober time, I lost track of the importance of staying mentally strong.  At this point, I have a huge decision to make.  I'm either going to join the millitary, and help this country that I have helped with all the frug searching and other illegal things I've done.  I have so much potential, I'm just going to have to work twice as hard to get where I want due to my recovery.  But these are big decisions, and I'm not really clean yet, so I must just ponder on them now and not make any decisions untill my head is really clear.

Thank you tramahater, u really help keep my mind thinking of positive things.  

[LeaAnn807]

Yes, at least you are real now.  Even though you may be a "real" trainwreck! LOL

Just concentrate on today.  Or...like I did, concentrate on 5 minutes at a time if you have to.  It tickles me now to see how we ALL, me included, count the hours that we have been clean.  I never knew if it was night or day when I was using, but for the first 6 months I was clean I knew the time down to the millisecond!!!!!!  Cracks me up.  But most everything does now.  I am happy and laugh constantly, mostly at myself.  You will be too, and you will be there for your GF and not just physically present.  Nobody wants that do they?  Our families want us back, and it's the greatest gift you can give them!

You're doing great.  Congrats on 84 hours! : D

[wherestheresetbutton]

Ya, I totally get that.  I was laying in bed feeling bad for myself... how effing selfish that is on my part.  My girlfriend tanked through all night studying for her statistics exam today.  But I gave up on feeling bad for myself, she needs me.  I am her rock and this whole week I've been nothing but a huge train wreck.  I feel terrible about it, but at least for once like somebody mentioned to me earlier, I didn't have to lie to her, cheat, or hide being high, all week.  Regardless of how much of a train wreck I might be, it still feels absolutly amazing knowing that I'm finally going to really be there for her again.  6 years....she has dealt with so much of my crap, must be true love :).  I'm ready to have all of me back, the clarity in my head now after 84 hours really let's me see what I've been doing these last 6 months.  Its my time now, and I plan on following through with my real dreams now, if I haven't already screwed that up.  But for now, I must focus on now.  I can work on getting my future together after these stupid physical symptoms stop.  I deserve to feel this way, after everything I've done.  But I can make it, and hopefully rebuild bridges I myself tore down.

This website is a lifesaver.
From the bottom of my heart I thank all of you

[LeaAnn807]

Around day 4 I had to start making myself get up and get in the shower FIRST thing.  I mean, I couldn't stand to sit still, and taking a hot shower got me moving.  I also found ten minute-tasks to keep me busy but not wear me out.  My energy was shot and so was my sleep, and that's NOT a good combo for feeling well! : )  But....the busier I stayed, the better I felt.  

[wherestheresetbutton]

Well, somewhere around 5 or 6 I dozed off, almost got 5 hours.  Beggining day four now, so for now I just gotta keep my head up.  Ill come back in a while when I feel better.  Thank you tram,  knowing its going to end in time does help.

S.