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relapse.....i do not want to//but i want to???
I was laid off from my job on Tuesday...times r tough....plus my guy is moving and decided he is getting back together with his x/i think...he wont break up but he is staying over there....so to me it is a done deal..he is a puss and wont do the dirty work of saying it is over//so i had to...and i didnt need the stress this week...she found out we were planning to marry next yr and things got intense//she had him arrested for trespassing and he caved///loves the 9 yr old//i am done///wont go there right now..but he is a weak person....a very bad week in general for me..instead of going to my doc///i turned to drinking....gone to meetings every night...cant go down! gonna see a counseler too..i need to talk..i am gonna explode if i do not!
I lost my job that i had for 9 yrs...I lost him///and i loved him but now i dont know why I did/do/but am letting go....i always come out on my feet/im down but trying hard not to relapse...i havent been posting cos i havent been out of my bed much at all this week til yesterday for a gym trip and today to lay on the beach...did me good tho...and is the reason i am up at this hour//i get depressed and go to bed at 8 pm! Losses all at once can test us....i love this forum ///everyone is so supportive....i will be ok...but relapse is in my mind cos i am weak/needy....thanks for letting me share
I lost my job that i had for 9 yrs...I lost him///and i loved him but now i dont know why I did/do/but am letting go....i always come out on my feet/im down but trying hard not to relapse...i havent been posting cos i havent been out of my bed much at all this week til yesterday for a gym trip and today to lay on the beach...did me good tho...and is the reason i am up at this hour//i get depressed and go to bed at 8 pm! Losses all at once can test us....i love this forum ///everyone is so supportive....i will be ok...but relapse is in my mind cos i am weak/needy....thanks for letting me share
Hi I'am very sorry that you are going through these tough times. But please hang on don't go back any steps. There is always a reason that things happen in our life in time the bad will pass in you will be looking at the sunshine ahead. you will get through this look in the miour in remind yourself of the hard work it took you to get here and tell your self you will be strong and that you are STRONG! Hang in there you are a tough girl!!!
Take care Jen
Take care Jen
I've seen your nmerous posts here -- most folks, when they get out from under this mess, move on, which may be a good thing for some, but you've continued to stick around and help others -- that's more than commendable, worried.
Three major stressors: Bang! Bang! Bang! The job loss is devastating to anyone; finding out someone who you thought you shared requited love with turns out to be a selfish, immature little pr*** -- good riddance, but that's a big mess of pain to suffer, and you've been clean through all the usual nastiness of life, but you're really being tested here ...
Don't drink anymore -- it leads to irrational decisions, like the notion that a few pills -- right, just a few -- are justified now ... I know how that feels -- I was living in parks and apartment building landings 15 years ago, somehow saved my job, gf was checking out someone else's groinal apparatus, getting ready to move halfway across the country to Mommy and Daddy's place, and I was drinking myself into oblivion night and day. Employer (I'd made a few friends in Management along the way -- I was productive, affable, reliable before the alcohol-for-breakfast thing set in) paid for in-house rehab, was actually doing a night-shift for them while in rehab and after I got out, it tokk 13 days for me to jump back into that squalid way of "living," but I straightened up pretty fast, and I'm still on the payroll. Don't drink anymore -- depressing, stupid decisions, excessive sick-time -- don't think of it as any way useful. Oh, and did I mention I was "above" aftercare?
Unfortunately I'm in the Opioid Web now, but trying to get out ... but enough about me. You really need to talk to a therapist or your doctor or a professional. You need to come here and see that complete strangers, in their own little hells, were moved by your post sufficiently to respond and offer support. Book appointment(s) tomorrow morning, go to whatever you're going to (maybe double it up), look for work, get all his **** in an orderly pile for pick-up, supervise the removal of this tiny speck of vomit's belongings, say close to nothing, but don't forget, "Good-bye; good luck" before you close the door for the last time.
And keep in touch. You could use a ton of help right now.
Three major stressors: Bang! Bang! Bang! The job loss is devastating to anyone; finding out someone who you thought you shared requited love with turns out to be a selfish, immature little pr*** -- good riddance, but that's a big mess of pain to suffer, and you've been clean through all the usual nastiness of life, but you're really being tested here ...
Don't drink anymore -- it leads to irrational decisions, like the notion that a few pills -- right, just a few -- are justified now ... I know how that feels -- I was living in parks and apartment building landings 15 years ago, somehow saved my job, gf was checking out someone else's groinal apparatus, getting ready to move halfway across the country to Mommy and Daddy's place, and I was drinking myself into oblivion night and day. Employer (I'd made a few friends in Management along the way -- I was productive, affable, reliable before the alcohol-for-breakfast thing set in) paid for in-house rehab, was actually doing a night-shift for them while in rehab and after I got out, it tokk 13 days for me to jump back into that squalid way of "living," but I straightened up pretty fast, and I'm still on the payroll. Don't drink anymore -- depressing, stupid decisions, excessive sick-time -- don't think of it as any way useful. Oh, and did I mention I was "above" aftercare?
Unfortunately I'm in the Opioid Web now, but trying to get out ... but enough about me. You really need to talk to a therapist or your doctor or a professional. You need to come here and see that complete strangers, in their own little hells, were moved by your post sufficiently to respond and offer support. Book appointment(s) tomorrow morning, go to whatever you're going to (maybe double it up), look for work, get all his **** in an orderly pile for pick-up, supervise the removal of this tiny speck of vomit's belongings, say close to nothing, but don't forget, "Good-bye; good luck" before you close the door for the last time.
And keep in touch. You could use a ton of help right now.
Touche...that said it all honey...
You have too much to offer to let a minor setback turn into a major disaster...turn to wherever you turn for strength, and if the lights are off..we are here for you
You have too much to offer to let a minor setback turn into a major disaster...turn to wherever you turn for strength, and if the lights are off..we are here for you
Hey !! Worried, see how many people care abt. you ?!! I know it makes you feel good to know this.!! Stress, heartbreak, unknown future, these things would make alot of people cave. Life is tough sometimes. :( I feel for you and with all my heart, I hope that everything works out for you !!
Bigs Hugs to you From Ella
Bigs Hugs to you From Ella
Hey Girrrrrrl:
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Yes life can throw some big ol’ curve balls our way and god can really test us at times.
1st of all, that dude sounds major coward, he doesn’t deserve such a nice person like yourself. Yea, several losses at one time can make you feel really BAD! So many people have lost their jobs at this point, at least you are not alone there. Well I know that doesn’t help, but I wouldn’t take it personally, I have so many friends who have lost their jobs. It’s crazy.
But look here how many people care about you. I do and I don’t even know you. You have posted so many helpful, knowledgeable & intelligent posts here. I love the polls you put together. I don’t deal with loss very well at all. Time heals all wounds. I hope you can stay strong. You have responded to my several of posts when I needed support, they have always been helpful and I really appreciate that and knowing you on this forum. Hang in there!
Penny
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Yes life can throw some big ol’ curve balls our way and god can really test us at times.
1st of all, that dude sounds major coward, he doesn’t deserve such a nice person like yourself. Yea, several losses at one time can make you feel really BAD! So many people have lost their jobs at this point, at least you are not alone there. Well I know that doesn’t help, but I wouldn’t take it personally, I have so many friends who have lost their jobs. It’s crazy.
But look here how many people care about you. I do and I don’t even know you. You have posted so many helpful, knowledgeable & intelligent posts here. I love the polls you put together. I don’t deal with loss very well at all. Time heals all wounds. I hope you can stay strong. You have responded to my several of posts when I needed support, they have always been helpful and I really appreciate that and knowing you on this forum. Hang in there!
Penny
Life will beat you down if you let it; well not so much life but the circumstances thrown at you. A few things and I'm not stating this to purely make you feel good but trying to give you some perspective:
1. Job - Healthcare is still a strong field, particularly in the healthcare informatics field, population health, EMR/PHR, etc. Home healthcare is strong, eg Hospice, virtual in home care organization, etc.
2. Relationship - Better to find out now that you had a weak parter than to invest a few years and find out later. I find it difficult to coddle a weak backboned individual; it is what it is...get on with it.
3. Using - nothing really to say here because I know, you know, that meds are not the answer. Remember your taper schedule and the apprehension about stopping completely?
When the mortgage debacle ensued, my high level position in an investment firm was in jeopardy. My life was also spinning out of control with stress and a few other things...taking a less stressful job has done wonders, and I mean wonders, for my psych. I'm probably healthier now than I have been in 20 years.
Stay healthy now; work out as much as you can (become a gym rat if you have too); swim, bike, weights, diet, etc. Communicate with your network for available jobs. Florida has a 12 month unemployment benefit; not sure what your State has. Whatever you do, please stay away from the meds...this is a road towards more heartache.
Take Care,
Guy
1. Job - Healthcare is still a strong field, particularly in the healthcare informatics field, population health, EMR/PHR, etc. Home healthcare is strong, eg Hospice, virtual in home care organization, etc.
2. Relationship - Better to find out now that you had a weak parter than to invest a few years and find out later. I find it difficult to coddle a weak backboned individual; it is what it is...get on with it.
3. Using - nothing really to say here because I know, you know, that meds are not the answer. Remember your taper schedule and the apprehension about stopping completely?
When the mortgage debacle ensued, my high level position in an investment firm was in jeopardy. My life was also spinning out of control with stress and a few other things...taking a less stressful job has done wonders, and I mean wonders, for my psych. I'm probably healthier now than I have been in 20 years.
Stay healthy now; work out as much as you can (become a gym rat if you have too); swim, bike, weights, diet, etc. Communicate with your network for available jobs. Florida has a 12 month unemployment benefit; not sure what your State has. Whatever you do, please stay away from the meds...this is a road towards more heartache.
Take Care,
Guy
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