It's different this time!!!

[gizzy32]

Today I am one month completely clean from drugs and alcohol. Even though I am almost 10 months off my DOC (cocaine) and a small pill binge 10 months ago, I did continue to drink some beers, mostly just a couple with the guys at golf course or playing poker, it was NOT a problem, or so I thought. Then I went through some stuff and even though I didn't relapse with cocaine or pills, I went on a 2 week drinking binge, one that had me chasing beer and rum for breakfast, disgusting:(. Since then, I am a month clean from alcohol. Even though I am clean from drugs for almost 10 months, I am only clean a month because I accept alcohol is a drug and that was a relapse. Some don't agree, but for me I can't drink and I have to stick to it this time.

I have switched addictions so many freaking times in my life and I WILL no longer do that, it's a disaster for me. I am an addict and still learning, but today I am truly clean a month. Thanks to those of you that gave me hell for that last drinking binge, it made me really think. I feel very happy today and ready to take my trip through the U.S next week, clean and sober. Thank to everyone and keep working your recovery, I promise it gets so much better!

[stilltrying1965]

WELL DONE ON STOPPING THE ALCHOL AS WE ALL NO IT IS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DOC BUT I MUST SAY VERY WELL DONE IN GIVING IT UP GIZZY SO KEEP UP THE CLEAN TIME BUD YOU AND ALL US DESERVE BETTER LIVES FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY SO KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK GIZZY WE ARE OVER THE MOON AT 72 DAYS CLEAN BUT I HAVE NEVER REALLY BEEN A DRINKER A THINK IT CAN BE WORSE THAN ANY DOC IF THAT MAKES SCENCE TO YOU BUDDY SO BE GOOD GIZZY CONGRATS ON THE 10 MONTH WAY TO GO MY FREIND JAMES TAKE CAREGIZ TTYS

[beatingthis]

I am feeling the love!!Giz my friend WAY TO GO!!!!! You are a fighter, But I do feel a bit sorry for you.
A Bill's Fan?! lol

You know I love you and dominosarah, worried and Sophie shine. You 4 were really here when I started my little journey to the world of clean. Well of clean of body anyway lol!!

Terry

[troubleinohio]

congrats to you bud...and you mentioned you have always switched addictions...how about going back to Reese's PB cups?? or are you still eating them all along anyways? lol.   I discovered their DARK chocolate type and OMG i cant stop eating those!  BTW, you think you have "shame to hide" in being a Bills fan?? How do you think *I* feel, being a lifelong Browns fan?? lmao! We havent even ever been to a Super Bowl EVER and only made it to a few playoffs in the entire history, lol.  Still I have my Browns jersey's and other stuff.  I do however like the STeelers more and more every year (and for the record, I think thats a crock of shitt- Big Ben being accused of rape!! I dont believe that for one second! I hope it wont affect his playing at all, he's a good guy. he even grew up in a town in my region of Ohio)

[SophieShine]

2 words: YOU ROCK!!!!!

[dominosarah]

back at ya my friend..........

[worried878]

girl...u rock...i feel better than i have felt all week from that one comment..it is amazing what positive reinforcement like that can do for a person...u r very special sara..u stick around..i can count on both hands and really not on another hand how many people post consistently since last february when i was detoxing...and u keep on keeping on...and tho i have never met u..i send my love to u

[dominosarah]

worried you are another one of those great people on this forum.......thank you for taking care of all of us...........sara

[worried878]

congrats giz..u r one of the greatest people on this forum..hats off to u and ur month clean...u deserve every second of it

[dominosarah]

You have taken the a$$ kickings like a real trooper and your clean time shows that!!!  You dont get mad and close your mind.......stay true to yourself gizzy         mp

[gizzy32]

Bobby, I can't wait, but getting the hell out of NM as fast as we can. Ty for being my best buddy, you have been a true angel to me.

MP, you rock and I will be waiting for that flyover:) Guard up.

Corey, I am a bills fan and gonna finally wear their jersey this year, I will no longer hide my shame, lol. Time to practice what we preach now huh. Thanks everyone, this site is the biggest reason I am clean and all the *** kickings ya'll give me.

[corey411]

Congratulations on your month Gizzy...I'm right behind you. We're both gonna do it this time right....I can see that year. We really need to learn to live the advise that we give out.lol. I get alot of notes telling me that. You coming to the US to stock up on Steeler stuff? Four more to go and one for the toe lol. I think we're gonna rock this year:o)) Funny, I saw the post about football being a trigger and for me it makes me forget drugs exist. I don't go to football parties. I watch it alone bc I don't want to let everyone know I swear like a sailor during the game. I don't any other time.  I don't watch it with Joe bc I can't stand to hear him swear.....he swears louder lol. Pat on the back to you Gizzy. You have come so far and we all love ya. Corey

[dominosarah]

Well well well my little giz........Congrats on the one month!!!!  FINALLY you are starting to get the big picture arent you!!!  I was ready to come to Canada and open up a can of whoop a$$ on you if you hadnt gotten it together.  I am so proud of you my friend.  You have come so far and your life is finally coming together......always keep your Guard up. I think you have earned a special fly over........mp

[bobby139]

I am so proud of you giz! You had me so worried during those damn two week drinking binge and mad as you know lol. But you pulled yourself out of it and now going to the meetings. You have come along way and ty for all the help you have given me, i know ive been a pain in the *** latley lol it is very hot here today, forcast for where you are landing it is going to be hot when you get there lmao have fun. hugs

[notgoingdown]

that is great new Giz!!! It is good to know that it is possible for an addict to know when the addiction is trying to fool them into thinking something is no big deal. You are a great example of a person using the tools of recovery to help themselves.

[candothis247]

Hey Gizzy -- that's great --- really!  Thanks for the encouragement. It seems like quitting really is a process. I’m 45 days off oxys, but used pills & pot that 1st week (home detox) or so, so i don’t know my exact "clean" date, I will figure it out later, one demon, monster, monkey, etc. at a time.

[wanttobeclean]

No to put you even higher on a pedestal, gizz...but you've gotten to me today.  I am done.  No more alcohol.  Thanks for the swift kick in the buttocks..You (and your pecs) rock!

[gizzy32]

Wanttobeclean, it's so good to see you on here! Give up the alcohol, don't be stubborn like I have been, lol.

Whitie, I do feel better now, i just couldn't say I was almost 10 months clean, drinking like I did for that short time. And, ImGettingClean, your right, GO BILLLLLLLLLLLS, we kicked the bears ***** last night:)

[whitie]

I know I had to get kicked in the face about 25 times, inorder to realizing I cannot control pill usage.

you have been a big help around here, and its great to see you have been free from your DOC for 10 months, and glad to see you stopped drink for a month.

you know what you had to do and did it.

I bet you feel much better now too.

[wanttobeclean]

Congratulations Gizzy!  I totally hear you on the alcohol.  Not my DOC at all, but for me, it was a feeling I was addicted to, not necessarily a certain substance.  When I finally realized that, it was easy to see that my road back to using my DOC could easily begin with the feeling I get with a little buzz from alcohol.  I'm still struggling to give up the alcohol completely....I still give in and have 1 or 2 now and then, but I'm working on it.  And at least I am aware now.  

Sorry to highjack your post ...
wtbc

[ImGettingClean]

Congrats Giz...Go Bills! =)

[daisy699]

Once again CONGRATULATIONS!! I sent you a mess congratulating you earlier. I'm sure you feel pretty damn proud of yourself as you should!! Keep  it up gizzy...daisy

[gizzy32]

Thanks buddy! It took me about 15 years to learn, lol. Congrats on working your recovery too.

[GA Guy]

Way to go Gizzy. I'm a lot like you..I'm a pill addict that's never really had a problem with alcohol. In fact, I think I've been drunk a grand total of 5 times in my life. BUT, I'm an addict..a drug addict, and alcohol is a drug to me. So, I've given up the alcohol as well. My rehab counselor explained to me that the receptors for opiates and alcohol are so close, that wen one's stimulated, the brain can't differentiate between the two. That's why so many drug addicts start drinking and let it lead them right back to their DOC. Congrats on doing the smart thing. It's a very courageous thing to do.