today is my one week clean!!!!!

[BornofOsiris]

Pretty proud of myself right now, its my one week, and work was not as horrible as it has been. O and yesterday someone text me with a good deal on hydro, but i turned him down and told him i don't mess with that stuff and not to offer it no more, he understood. Last night was my first ever NA meeting...it was great very comfortable, got a lot of numbers, end even met some guys my age, who love to play music(i was hoping to go to a NA meeting with people i could really relate to)

It feels the greatest to be clean again...to everyone struggling right now, it is so worth off of everything, every minute of that pain is worth it trust me you start to feel normal again, just take it day by day. Tell yourself every morning that your going to have a clean day and stick to it!!! my thoughts go out to everyone in the trenches repairing there life's....work hard stay busy, keep hydrated, it will come soon.

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[BornofOsiris]

congrats man im glad to hear that....doesnt it feel so hood now??? not sure about most people but i feel like i am turning back to my normal SOBER self very fast...my progression feels like it is getting 2x better everyday (i didnt use for a super long time no more then a year and a half and the frist 6 or 8 months i was not abusing the pills) so i truly believe i didn't totally loose myself in them, and the mental part isnt to bad...I was at a friends house and someone who i didn'tknow showed up and popped some pills right infront of me =O...but dont worry i didnt have the slightest craving or anxiety...I think im getting back to normal but im never going to let my guard down im going to keep NA instuff...i dont think i need a counselour because the mental part is not bad at all i hardly have any mental issues at this point no major cravings or voices telling me i need pills.

"If" there was something in my kid years that made me an addict i have no clue what it is....i never once had a traumatic experience or never realy experienced watching people abuse...My parents drank but only on there days off and never was a big issue....I DONT KNOW!!! i think i just became and addict because i made a mistake, i was not aware of the addictionist of pills i was never educated on them.Plus i was not even paying attention every time i popped pills to go to work.

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[wildwoodone]

Congrats!  I am 7 days clean today too!   My "friend" called me on day three when I was feeling really yucky and had hydros 7.5's for half of what I usually paid.  WAs tempted but made it and told her I was really quitting.  Feeling good now and it is so nice not to have to spend all my money on the pills.

[BornofOsiris]

Yes im referring to my addiction lol...plus when im having a craving i just repeat it in my head to help out....i actually got the line from a christian metal band, "Underneath The Gun" i like listening to them for inspiration (alot of there music is written for inspiration and to give hope)


PS
This WILL NOT last....This CANNOT last...

[ImGettingClean]

COngrats....

your Signature, "This WILL NOT last...This Cannot last...", you're referring to the addiction, right, not your sobriety?

=)

[BornofOsiris]

thnx everyone it means alot to me. I think this detoxing kit is really helping getting all the chemicals and toxins out of my body. I still have another week of it, but i know i can do it. The only thing that ***** from this cleansing kit is when i get hungry OMG I GET HUNGRY lol i have never felt hunger pains so strong. I dont eat alot but when i need to eat...i need to eat haha...Once again thnx everyone i can allways use the support.

Dallas

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[Peg626]

Congratulations! I know that good feeling. . . .and those feelings that still haunt us. But, the good thing is that we're all still fighting the good fight!!! I'm thankful everyday for this forum. It's especially helpful when I have cravings. . . . I'm reminded of all I've accomplished & definitely NOT willing to jeopardize that. I'm very proud of you, keep going!!!

[whitie]

Good job........but realize this is a long term battle(and it sounds like you do) for your body and that 800 pound gorilla is still going to try and pull some moves. remain totally dedicated and other  battles are still ahead, the war is still being waged.


best of luck, and please keep us updated, it helps people out to know what happens to others

[BornofOsiris]

Thank you to everyone. It means alot to me for your support. If it was not for this forum i dont know where i would of got some extra strength from. About a hour ago i was just sitting down and reading then blam i fell asleep and i slept good. (its been ahwile since i got some good sleep) and now that i think about it when i woke up this morning, pills was not immediately on my mind!!!!

ps
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[gizzy32]

Congrats on a week clean and going to your first meeting, that was a big step. When we have some type of aftercare in place and work at our recovery our chances are so much better. Your doing great!

[worried878]

u keep on moving forward...souns like u have a plan

[Cassie415]

Wow you sound so good. Congrats on one week and turning down the offer. That takes a lot of strength. You should be so proud! Congrats!!