what happened to in sicknes and in health?

[Mim2rock]

I have been trying to wean myself off a daily regime of four Opana ER 5mg, four Xanax 1mg and Percocet 10s four times a day as needed for break through pain. This is for 3 herniated discs, scoliosis, arthritis in my back, sciatica and fibromylgia. Because of my mitral valve prolapse, hypertension and arrythmia I've had to do it slowly because i was rushed to the the hospital for enlarged heart and possible heart attack and cold turkey could kill me. But that doesn't mean it isn't the hardest thing I have ever done in my life! I have been on pain medications through a pain management office for over 5 years.Although I have chronic pain the ER doctors said if wanted to live to be around for my son, husband and mother I needed to stop taking the pain pills.I pretty much held up in my room for over a month because i didn't want to have my family see me that way and although my husband had said he wanted me to get off them in front of the ER doctors and my family he has done nothing to help and later said he was sick of hearing about how hard it is. Quote: Don't you have anything else to talk to me besides your problems? So I avoided everyone and held up in my room 24/7going through hell alone.First I had gotten off the Xanax and for over a month the most I slept was 3 or 4 hours an hour or 2 at a time in day. If i wasn't sweating then my whole body shook so hard that i felt like i had sprained every muscle in my body, I threw up everything even water.If I did pass out from exhaustion i had night terrors every time and woke up screaming. Next i was completely off the Percocet.  I still wasn't sleeping and in excruciating pain because my back hurt so bad. I was so angry because he hadn't done any house cleaning (even cleaned up after himself) or gone grocery shopping. the house was filthy and he spent his days off in bed watching tv . My son is living with his father (my ex husband). So last saturday while my son was staying over my husband of 12 years came in my room to yell at me as usual and he told me wanted me out of HIS house in 2 weeks. So he is throwing me out onto the streets. i'm on disability (and ashamed of it because i have supported myself since i was 17) and i have until next saturday to get out. And he left Saturday to stay with his friend and left me here with no food in the house, my car won't start (and i had a doctors appointment today) i told him when he left my car wasn't working but he just left. And then called me today to tell me he was divorcing me. Does he just think this all just ***** and giggles for me? This nightmare just keeps getting better and better. I've been used up and I'm soooo tired of the fighting and hurting and feeling useless and a waste of space. I have worked hard all my life (since i was 12) and went to school for dentistry and worked in that field for over 15 years. what happened through sickness and in health? I supported him while he finished school. I worked a whole day in the dental office then i worked in a gas station at night and i got up every morning to deliver newspapers just to pay our bills. I did all the housework, gardening, bills, cooking/baking. But after my back pain got so bad i just couldn't work in the dental office and then it got to the point i couldn't work at all so i got on disability. After i couldn't work i fell into a deep depression and bad anxiety. Well i know I'm not going to die cold and alone on the streets but in my warm bed. I'm done. I can't take anymore I don't think i can get any lower than i am now. I guess i can understand him wanting to move on and have a better life. But i was really trying to get better and i didn't ask for any of these medical problems.I didn't cause them to happen.

[luppygirl]

I also think you should not leave the house.  I am not up on American law but if you are married he just can't kick you out on the streets.  And if worse comes to worse and you need a lawyer for something the one benefit of being on disability is you can use legal aid and he can't.  So you maybe that will hit him where it hurts.  And if he wants a divorce so badly he will most likely end up paying you alimony because I am sure with you being on disability he must make more money then you do, so he will owe you something.  I am sure you would rather have him at your side helping you through this difficult time.  But sometimes unfortunately men usually aren't strong enough to handle the stress of helping someone in need (I am not saying that all men are like that, I got lucky with mine we were only together one month before i got sick and almost died, 4 years later he is still here even though i am very sick)  This kind of treatment of people makes me so mad.  I am just fuming at your husband.  I would love to have a little chat with this person that calls himself a man and your husband because he is sucking at both right now.  Quit the pain meds first then the xanax, it will make the withdrawals from the pain meds easier, and remember when getting off xanax taper and taper very slowly we don't want you having any seizures.  I really think you should call legal aid and find out what your options are, check to see if he can legally kick you out and stuff like that.  It will benefit you so much to get informed.  I know it all must be overwhelming but hang in there and there is such a good group of people on this site that will be here to help you in anyway they can.  So take a deep breath let it out slowly and trying to think calming thoughts.

[jt808]

yea i agree he cant throw u out and i hate to say it but the law def favors women so u mine as well use it this guy seems very capable and rite now u are not u will b eventually but u need the house more rite now so id call the police now get a report on him like has he threatened u or anythng u can get a report than get a restraing order that will not allow him in the house thats one option or u can hav police come just say hey im afarid of what my husband will do if ur truly are afarid than get a report document it. i dont recommend lying but if u thnk it could get to that point get a report

[flmagi]

Possession is nine tenths of the law. Stay in Your house! Don't give up....get angry!!!!!   You're going thru to much to let him walk over you like that. You must be a strong person, to have gotten off all those drugs, so bring that strength back. You can do this.  If he is not there, get a restraining order on him. Now is the time to call on friends and family for strength too. Do not give up!

[Mim2rock]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and respond to me. i havent talked or seen anybody for days and i just feel scared and depressed. Im so alone and i have started taking Xanax again and i have stopped taking my heart and blood pressure medicine. I keep hoping I just won't wake up. He had been going behind my back while we was together and opening his own bank accounts and who knows what else he has done. I worked so hard to get off the drugs but now all that pain and suffering i went through just got me deserted and all alone. But again thanks for caring and taking the time to leave me a comment avisg.It's more than anybody else has done and it really means the world to me.

[avisg]

Why is it that you have to leave the house? He is already gone I guess I would tell him if he is not happy he should remain gone you are married so he cant toss you on the streets.No problems are worth ending your life over. I truly hope that not what you are considering if so plz get some help you have people that need you .We are here to help.