What a story...you must be a very strong person to have kicked all that CT! Great post...mandee...I never thought about it like that...I know most people can go to social function and never feel like they have to drink or take pills to have fun, they dont even want to, dont even have the urge.....hummmmm...good point
Yeah, and emptiness, a void. Like the first summer BBQ I hit is gonna be hell (can't drink, am a sober alcoholic too for over a year now) can't take pills, why can't I just NOT WANT TO, not that I CAN'T. Thanks for the motivation, if it does getter better a month or so longer isn't too much to pay, I really do want to be free just been feeling like it's never gonna happen, until I heard from you ; ) Thanks.
congrats on 14 days you are doin great!!!
Josh
That feeling will go away it takes awhile. I know what you mean though it was kind of like an empty feeling like something is missing but that goes away it takes a few months though. I just thought that as each day passes it gets a little better and if I screw this up I will have to do this all over again. NO WAY JOSE!!!!!
Josh
Me too flutterby111, but I'm only 14 days in, seems I don't like life as much clean, but could quickly get out of control like Josh, thank you sooo much for sharing by the way. How did you deal with the feeling that you NEEDED something to make life enjoyable? I would love to pick your brain on that subject and congrats on your freedom, I would love to feel free : )
oh and back to you flutterby, don't do it.... you are WAY too FAR into this to screw it up, post about it and we'll remind you (and I'll remind myself at the same time)
MUCH LUV
You just reminded me why I need to stay clean. I've been having really really bad thoughts about relapsing lately.....cravings a ton...and I'm 6 weeks clean today. I don't want to relive that ever again. Thank you. I was never on that much dope. Yes, I can do this.....Thank you..... You gave me hope!!!! Congrats on your sobriety!
P.S. I thought I pissed myself too-isn't that awful-LOL I can laugh now!
Congrats on 4 months...and thanks for your story...that gives us all hope that life does get better!!!! You should be proud of yourself!!! Way to go!!
Thank you I just hope I can help because I know it can be a very scary time and just knowing that some of us are beating this and have gone through it really does help. I know everyone can do it you just have to want it bad enough.
Best wishes
Josh
you give me the currage to know i to can do this im proud of you keep up the good work you rock♥
Josh,
That was a really good post. I'm glad you posted it since it will give a lot of new people going through wd's hope that if you can get through that, then so can they.
Melissa
wow! good story for people to hear and know there is light at the end of the tunnel!! YOU ROCK!!