I am so so sorry that this happened. I am flooding my keyboard with tears right now. I am sure that the surgery and chemo will go well, but I just don't want this to be real. I am floored by this so I can imagine how you are feeling. I wish there was something I could do for you. Love and concern, Marie
I can only imagine how completely devastated you are. Wish I had the words you need to hear at the moment to help you find some peace. I know you'll eventually get there after you let yourself get over the shock of this. I will keep praying all goes well and you'll get into chemo soon and get it over and done with. You are strong, and that same willpower you had 4 1/2 years ago will come back. Cancer beware...Jane's back in the ring and is fixin' to give you a whippin'!!!
So hang in there, and you KNOW we are always here and will be with you every step of the way.
Love,
Gail
That sneaky rotten lousy (etc, using all the bad words that aren't allowed here) cancer, hiding behind the stomach. I am so sorry this has happened. I understand the tears. Please don't feel bad or guilty that you were happy for a time, thinking you were cancer free. This isn't some kind of punishment for rejoicing. All of us love healthy happy days. I'll be praying that the doctors will zap that tumor into oblivion so you can smile again.
Jane, you will be in my prayers. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug, to talk with you. I am having some weird issues right now, to. Mid back pain (dull, deep pain), and even with losing some weight, I look several months pregnant. Please, let us know how things are going, and remember that we are praying and thinking about you.
Cat
You will do what you have to do and come out fine. That's it. There's no other alternative or outcome.
Everyone is here for you.
The others are right. They will get the tumor and chemo will stop it from going further. I think the docs need to stop telling the early stage ovca patients that they are in the clear. Maybe all survivors need checked every 90 days, forever. If it catches one recurrence on time I say it is worth the money. Just know I will not allow you to leave my thoughts. I am here and am hoping for the best outcome. Marie
Thank you all so much. I know I will do what I need to do, this crap isn't getting me, I am going to get it. We know how it is when the air is taken out of our sails though. It really was unexpected, and I just truly never imagined it would come back.
So I will be in Baltimore Monday morning having this nasty thing biopsied, and then will see my gyn/oncologist on Tuesday and I assume schedule surgery, will recover and jump into the chemo, get it done.
I have been seeing a doctor in one form or the other almost every 3 months, the last year, I would say every 6 months, because I was getting farther out, and everything has been picture perfect. I am glad I have you wonderful ladies in my corner. The encouragement has done my weary soul some good today. Now I am going home and am going to enjoy my grandson tomorrow and not think about anything, for just a little while. Thanks again ladies. I will keep everyone updated.
Hey there. I have been reading and rereading your first post this morning.....I have started to respond on three different occasions. I can't find the words.
Jane, my nightmare just bit you in the rear ! I am 5 years out from chemo this month.....I have trouble believing it won't return to slap me just as you have been slapped.
Girl, I am so sorry this has happened to you, but, I am glad to learn you have a grandson to love this weekend. These little people are such gifts of love and laughter...I watch a little granddaughter and am deeply enriched by her.
A day won't pass without me thinking and wondering about you.
Please know we are all here all the time....you are not walking alone.
Peace.
dian
Enjoy that grandson. I know my grandbabies are what keep me going.
Thinking of you, Marie
Jane, stopped by to see how my friends are doing and was devastated to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you reenter the fighting ring. Kick it hard!
Jane, I know I am fairly new here...but you know what? You beat it once...you WILL do it again!!! Nothing but love & prayers...
~Denise
Jane,
I wanted you to know that I was thinking about you....I too was dx with stage 1a....You are in my thoughts and prayers.....
Love,
Dawnlyn
Jane,
I can't imagine what is going through your head right now, but you have a great attitude and I KNOW YOU CAN BEAT THIS AWFUL UGLY DISEASE! I'll pray a rosary for you to have the strength to do this and you can always count on us for support. Lisa
You beat it once, Jane, you can beat it again. There are so many of us that have had recurrences and we're still here, so set your mind to it. I'm thinking of you...
Linda
Thanks again for all the support. It truly means alot to me. I just got the confirmation (like I didn't know all ready), but this mass is positive for clear cell, so I have officially "re-occurred". Surgery is on Wednesday at 8:30am. I am nervous, but I am ready. I just now need to finish getting my house and my office together. I will be thankful for any prayers anyone wants to say on my behalf.
I will check back with you all after I am home and recover a bit. Thanks again ladies. You are all wonderful. Jane
You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything goes well and recovery is easy for you. Marie
You"re on my calendar. Will be praying from now until you write back. hugs
Hi Jane -
I just came upon your original post. I really don't know what to say, but please know that I will be praying for you! By now you'll have had your surgery, and I wish you nothing but a healthy, speedy recovery! Stay strong, because you can do this.
Aglaia
Jane, you will be in m prayers...as I just said to a friend....once you get rid of the tumors, the cells that are left deserve a little chemo cocktail...and it will taste like Raid, LOL Keep your chin up...love n prayers, Denise
Jane, what a shock. I'm sorry to hear your news. I am stage 1c clear cell - 1 1/2 years out. I'm glad they found it early. Did your CA-125 go up at all?
Nope my CA 125 was a 9. That is slightly elevated for me, mine would go from 3.9 and the highest I think was 7. So as I've preached to a couple people, whom have the same diagnoses, Stge 1A clear cell, believe it or not, some of these women are getting NO scans at all as followup. I may grow green as I think this scan was my 8th? This time this scan saved my life, if I had a doctor that monitored me with CA125 test alone, I'd be in trouble.
Again all of you ladies, your support and words of faith, are truly wonderful. I really need it. I will post "sometime" after surgery. This time the incision will be quite big, so I expect healing may be a little harder, but we'll see.
Hugs to all of you!!
Jane
So sorry to hear you are going through this...I can't imagine how tough it must be. I feel confident your surgery will go well and that it won't be long before this nasty disease has left you once again. I look forward to hearing that you are back on your feet after the surgery.
I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you, you are and will be in my prayers. I hope your recovery is speedy...Please know that we are all here for you.
I do not get a CA125 test done, my doc said not a good indicator for me. Mine fluctuated between 9.8 and 11. But I have been getting CT scans every 6 months,
You will beat this, please take care and rest as much as possible.
Love,
Dawnlyn
I had a CT scan after chemo ended, (1 1/2) years ago, but I've heard no mention of having another one. How often should one have CT scans?