4th day off...this is my breaking point...

[starshine7]

Ah...vicodins. Nasty things. Sooo sick. weak. nauseous. Feel like I'd trade my soul almost...for one. HATE myself for feeling this way...scared.

I always jump off at this point...gotta go on..I've been here. don't want this again. But the PAIN.....

Trying.

[SmilingBright]

Praying for you Karen!!   You are doing this.   One day at a time !!!!! You have a lot of support here!!  
Love Chris

[starshine7]

You certainly are! I joined here in Feb of this year right after my last BAD withdrawl. I knew I needed to stop this insanity.

Yes, by prescription, I take 5 2mg adivan a day...but I have for years...so it almost feels like they work for an hour and then nothing.

I went to a methadone clinic last July, and that's when they said it would poison me if I took it...OH I was so depressed. Like my only hope I thought. I knew i couldn't do 2 w/ds at once...

But, I know I will always need something for anxiety...just have natural nerves and panic attacks.

[clean_in_ks]

You're in the "thick" of it....tie a knot and hang on.......if you give in....you'll just have to do this AGAIN.....hr by hr.....it DOES get better.  If you don't feel like doing much with your "body"......keep your "mind" busy, watch movies, youtube funnies, check our Jeff Dunham and his ventriloquist humor.....he's an absolute HOOT.....just doing anything to keep your mind off the "battle in your head".......

Here's a few ditties:

"There is NEVER a good time to quit, only the time YOU MAKE to quit."

"If we don't have time to "be sick", we must take the take to get well".

You're doing it........keep talking to us......we're holding you up!

[VICourageous]

Ohhh Watch the Monster drinks..I had anxiety to the moon for a long time..Besides the Dones it was the benzo & adderral too. I had to stay away from all stimulants..They seem to have given me more gitters and made my kidneys hurt...You just hang tight..I know you will..Hey are you taking 5 advian a day???

[starshine7]

You guys are the kindest people. I feel so emotional. THANKS to all of you. I gotta keep going. I know.

Fluids, are mostly gatorade and monster drinks...This is really what is crunch time! God I don't want to fail!

You know, I wanna be like you guys! I want to see the world clear...not need a pill for EVERYTHING I do..It feels so funny. I actually do see that i don't..! wild.

Then, after this I have another beast i REALLY want to kill: my 5 a day advian diet...ugh.

[VICourageous]

Very Good you are doing it!!!!! Yaaaa! You have been on this site for a while..You know the drill...You also know all the things we use here for the w/ds....Come on girl give your self a pat on the back..You are doing it..Gone too far to look back now...Wow I am soooooo pround of you...lol