4th day off...this is my breaking point...

[starshine7]

Ah...vicodins. Nasty things. Sooo sick. weak. nauseous. Feel like I'd trade my soul almost...for one. HATE myself for feeling this way...scared.

I always jump off at this point...gotta go on..I've been here. don't want this again. But the PAIN.....

Trying.

[starshine7]

Just wanted to say....Day 6? hard to fathom it...still alive and can't say well lol cause it's not there. Achy, no energy still, back and forth depression and cravings...

Melatonin gives me MAJOR weird dreams...vivid. I dreamed last night i was buying some stuff....vikes. ugh. NO sleep last night.

Gonna try again today to sleep if I can...immodium central here! :(

still doing this....

[TiredinTempe]

Very powerful..hope u got some sleep. I managed five hours. Day four today and back to work in a few hours. At least I will stay busy this week. Then headed out of state on Sat for vacation. Hang in there!

[Sweetness91]

You ARE going to get thru this...I promise. It seems like you won't at this point, but you're at the thick of it...keep pushing on! Dont give up!! I know where you are...the point that you worry about never taking another pill...but the worry will subside...and the thought of taking another pill will soon make you sick! Honestly...it does get better. The word "time" used to make me ill...but now it is my friend! And soon it will be yours too! Dont give up...please don't! You will be surprised at what you can do my friend...sheer willpower and the desire to be clean can overcome all those feelings of "just one more". In the back of your mind you have to remember what lies ahead.....FREEDOM!! I wish you the best of luck!! Keep rockin it....you got this...even if you don't know it!!

[starshine7]

helps a lot truly :)

[starshine7]

I tried sending you a note and a post to thank you but it didn't work. I appreciate it-it does make you HATE your DOA....powerful. I like poems like this as well, I have read 1 about meth..How are you doing? day 3 and 4 are worst for me and as you can see, I cannot sleep...after midnight. Still got more coming I know, but this time I'm trying more than ever...

[TiredinTempe]

Hang in there ur doing good. I just sent u an email. Plz check it out. You will do this!