Day 12.. Learning how to live Clean!

[dedicatedtostop]

Hey all,

I wanted to start a new post with positives!
So Day 12 here and WOW!!! What a difference!
For those of you that have followed my journey, we move in 2 Days!! While my anxiety is high, I do beleive a lot of it is due to the move! 2 hours from here back to my old stomping grounds, which we love! Closer to family for support! My girls will be going to new Schools which, again is a good thing but I am a Mother, of course it stings! Not to mention my baby girl will be a Freshman in High School! While not packing, I have enjoyed riding my bike with my girls to our neighborhood pool. Soaking up the Vitamin C feels great! Life is so much clearer and honestly it's rather sad looking back now that I was numb to my own children, never taking the time to hear about their days or simply chat! I see now why everyone says my 14 yr old is hilarious! Man she makes me smile and really, she has become my best friend in this past week! I went to another meeting this morning and while I chose not to speak, it was very Therapitic!! I have an apt scheduled with a psychiatrist next wed and looking forward to that!

With all that said, I want to say this: someone on here once told me
" that there will never be a good time to detox "... Something in your life will always be going on and make you feel like you can't do it " right now "... Well, here I am going through this massive move with a moody husband that doesn't get what I have and still am going through! My girls starting new schools 3 weeks prior to what they would have if we wouldn't have moved! I did it and I am still doing it! While I know I still have a long way to go, I will never let my guard down!! I have good days and bad days but, I am learning to live again..
PILL FREE!!
I send my utmost Love to every single person that ever responded to any of my post! That Live goes out to the ones that have me tough love when I needed it the most, even if it hurt!! For that I Thank You!.... You know who you are!!
While I will be busy the next few days I will check back in daily!
Right now, I am going to go back and soak in the Vitamin C with the 2 most important people in my life.... My beautiful girls!!
I sincerely give all of my love to every single one of you who got me through the worst Days of my life!

Love,
Ashley..DEDICATEDTOSTOP

[dedicatedtostop]

It's funny you said that because my husband and I literally just sit down and said the exact same thing! I have come wayyyyy to far and other that a few anxiety bits here and there.... I am good! I am so ready to lock the doors to this home and open the door to a new life!! It's actually become a bit of an adrenaline rush. I do however know my limits with having a bad back and have been finding myself sitting down and saying NO WAY will I risk hurting myself! Right now there is nothing more important than my sobriety!!

[Frogger76]

So happy to hear your sobriety is #1. Moving is stressful enough as is, but doing it while detoxing, I couldn't imagine.  Keep it up girl!! Your story is gonna inspire those struggling. Good luck to you!!

[dedicatedtostop]

Thank You for that comment!
Moving forward...

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl  congrats on day 13  your off to a great start  Cudos for hiting the meeting's  it is the single best thing you can do for long term recovery  you will find it takes less work to live in recovery then it did chasing the the pills 24/7  just stick with it the move will go fine   NO LIFTING FOR YOU  YOU HAVE A BAD BACK LIKE ME!!!!!!  you dont need the pain triger to set you off and running on the pills again  it has happened to me more times then I care to admit  I even O/D because of it so Guard up.....keep posting it helps you as well as others  I just got back from a week in L/A with 2 of my daughters  so im ketching up on everybody  you sound good to go  just be careful................Gnarly

[dominosarah]

You are finally getting it!!!  I am so proud of you!!

[Danny111]

Good luck with your move Dedicated.