Day 2, in WD, won't go back

[Cassie415]

Hi everyone, I am trying again to stop using oxycontin. For some people who have seen me say this a million times I know you might be sick of me or think I am not actually going to do it, but all I can say is i'm trying again. I am really determined to do this. I am going to get sober this time and make it out on the other side and finally experience life clean. I am going to find new ways to find happiness, because I know oxycontin is just filling some kind of void and it is just artificial happiness that leaves me sick and deathly feeling. I have found a volunteer program that works with kids here, which is what I love to do, and so I am joining it. I'm going to find new ways to fill my time and new things to be interested and passionate about. I want to be clean and happy for these holidays and spend them with my family and not be on drugs. I am not going to waste away anymore and barely live my life. I just want to feel real happiness in myself and my life. Today is day 2, I am very sick, but making myself get up and walk to school has helped. Thank you everyone that constantly helps me and doesn't give up, it means so much. So here goes, i'm trying again.

[bmdad]

I also had dreams the last time in went through withdrawals. Heck, I'm still dreaming about the sh!t even though I'm tapering! I really need to get mentally ready and just say the heck with the tapering. I do know tapering helps but it does kinda drag it all out. I went cold turkey last time and was clean for a year and then my back started acting up again. I should have known better than to think I could take them responsibly! Live and learn I guess. Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better. Eventually the dreams will stop and your mind and body will be back to normal. Keep up the great fight Cassie!
Brian

[Cassie415]

Jvette,
Thanks for sharing your story with me, and congrats on getting off the oxycontin. If you don't mind me asking, how old are you?

Mybabygirl,
I'm glad your daughter is doing well and is in medical detox. This thing is quite a lot to fight, especially at a young age. Sometimes I think how I even got to this point, but I know  I am lucky to realize young and try and get help young. In terms of doing this alone, I come on this site often and I go to a group meeting at my college and occasional counselor. I have not told my family, I don't think I will, although I know so many people disagree with this.

And BmDad,
It's better today, my flu symptoms/wd feel better too. I have been staying home and taking  a lot of anti-oxidants and vitamin C so hopefully everything is getting a bit better.

Last night I had a dream that I was using oxycontin, I said only a day, but then the  next day I kept doing it too. I woke up soaked in sweat and I am so happy it was just a dream.

[bmdad]

Not sure if the earache is related to the withdrawals or not. You did say you had the flu and maybe strept throat. It might be because of that. But people do experience different symptoms during withdrawals. I know I got one of those awful headaches that I felt right behind my eye. I've never had that before until I went through withdrawals and it didn't start until around day 5 or so. Have you been to the doctor yet for your flu? If it the earache doesn't get better in a couple days I would get it checked out. Hope you are feeling better otherwise!

[MyBabyGirl668]

Hi Cassie.....Just wanted to let you know that my daughter is in Medical detox (oxy) as I type this note. She has been there for 2 days.  I think of you often as I know you are going through the same hell as she is.  She is 17 and in an adult Medical detox centre where she is the only person under 18 (there is nothing available for youth).  Most people have been in and out for years.  I hope she sees in them what she does not want for herself and maybe will be helpfull when she gets her cravings.  Are you doing this alone?  If so.....I really urge you to get help.  If you are able to go to a rehab for 3 months (I know it sounds long) it will be your best bet.  From what I've learned this drug cannot be fought by one lone soldier.  I have the task of convincing my daughter of this and I know she will not believe she can't do it on her own.  She has a very strong character but I think this is even stronger than her.  Take care.

[jvette]

Wow seems like you are very determined to do this! I'll share a bit of my experience with you. Long story short I first tried OC about 16 months ago and it took me down QUICK. This past August after many failed attemps at quitting and me consistently snorting 320MG (FOUR OF 'em!) of Oxy I finally came clean with my family and admitted I needed help and could NOT do this on  my own. Between seeing an addiction therapist and AA I am starting to get my life back. I went cold turkey and just withdrew my *** off for about a week and dealt with many lingering symptoms for another week or two. All I can say is AFTERCARE is VITAL, at least for me. I can't imagine how I would be doing this without either NA or AA. Between the meetings, the fellowship that I have now, and the steps, it's all keeping me sober. In terms of my clean time, I got up to 32 days, relapsed on what would have been my 33rd day, got RIGHT back up the next day and went back to AA, and am now at day 29...and all I can say is that I feel AMAZING! Good luck to you :) You can do this!

[Cassie415]

im alright....Do you think an earache/headache, like throbbing pain on the left side of my head/ear could be a wd symptom?