Day 8 and FEEL great!!!!!Yipeeee

[cc70]

Just want to keep people posted....I finally woke up not feeling foggy and exhusted (sure I would have loved to stay in bed another hour than get up feed and dress kid, get them off to school and go to work!) but I am at my office and I feel normal. To be repetetive...I had 13.5 years clean before a Mountain bike accident sent me to the ER in an ambulance...lots of hardcore pain meds..morphine, delati, perks then vics....and then my monster woke up. I am not as conceended with Pills.....I flushed them all away and worked with my Dr. to get off them (getting rid of ability to re-up on them) but I leave tomorrow for a 2 week business trip.....and over the last 5 years of my recovery (herion used to be my D.O.C) I have been really wanting to have a drink. Alcohol was never my issue and I got clean at a very young age....I just never did becasue that is what they tell you in the 12 step programs......I haven't been to meetings in a few years now....but part of me really wants to have a glass of wine when I am out on bussiness dinners. It is milling in my head ....the only thing that had ever stopped me was 13.5 years of recovery (EGO...now that i am starting over I need somethign more to keep me grounded!)
I have no desire to go and do any drugs...(street drugs) my life is so far removed from all of that.....but my husband is also clean.....11 years.....and he still doesnt know I about this.....(part of my problem...total communication break down over the years) IDK.....I am thinking I need to get into therapy!

[10356]

Your story sounds a lot like mine.. Heroin was my original doc and I also have not a problem with street drugs but after my accident addiction reared it's ugly head.. I went to therapy and finally put to rest the very things that had me a Heroin addict.. It was a life saver.. I no longer drink and have been off the norco for over 3 mo. I found it is never too late to fix what haunts you.. Congratulations on your freedom and have a good trip.. lesa

[Ronnie152]

Good for you CC. I hope you injoy your 2 weeks away.

[worried878]

therapy..perhaps..but meetings or aftercare for sure...u know how important aftercare is...why do u think u r not going?  i guess it is hard to go back after a long time but it really does keep us clean..i also started drinking more after quitting and had to get a handle on it...let my brain rest and heal.....keep us posted