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[JD1885]

Hello,

I'm posting this because I'm really sick and tired of being addicted to pain killers.  I've been off and on hydrocodone and oxycodone for about 5 years.  It all started at work with a bunch of guys who always had them.  It was cool at first for us all to pop a few and work and laugh together.  But now, I'm older and married with two kids and this crap is ruining my life.  Before, it never got to the point where I was going thru withdrawals when I wouldn't take them but now I've found a steady supply and I take usually 3 - 6 a day.  And at $6 a piece, it's ruining my life.  I am already broke, heading for divorce, and I'm sure it can only get worse from there.  I won't go to rehab or a doctor, I just have to quit.  I have before for a few weeks and then somehow, like a *******, wind up back at the guy's house buying more.  I joined this forum for a little support.

Thanks

[JD1885]

Hello.  Yes I'm still hanging in there.  Today has been pretty rough mentally.  The physical symptoms are pretty much gone, it's just the cravings and depression part that is rough now.  Any other Saturday I would already be about 6 deep in tabs.  I'm going to keep pushing forward though.  I had nightmares all night last night about taking pills.  It's on my mind but, I'll be fine going without.  I'm keeping a positive attitude and really looking forward to having money again.  I'm also looking forward to gaining back some of the 35 pounds I lost over the last year and a half.  I still have no appetite but it will be better in a few days.  Thanks again everyone for your support.

[selfinduced]

I took B-12, but someone here will have a better answer for you. Protien shakes helped alot, but mostly just time and hot baths for muscle aches and anxiety. Still hanging in there?

[JD1885]

I have a friend who is in the same exact situation as me, as we have become pill buddies over the last year or so and now we are both broke and realizing we've got a big problem to deal with.  He is 3 days the same as me and he heard about the B vitamins and started taking them about a week ago and before I ever read this today he was telling me to get some that they are really helping him out mentally.  Is it just vitamin B-6 or a B vitamin complex?  As you know, probably like most of you, I have very little extra money now and I want to make sure I buy the right thing.  Man, it's going to be an awesome 2012!!

[selfinduced]

Bravo! Your doing amazing. Another day down, tomorrow will be easier. Congratulations on getting your life back. Sending you strength and energy for the next few days. You got this!!!

[wishfulthinking57]

Hey JD.  Congrats on day 3 is it?!

The mental struggle was the toughest part for me as well, and I'm sure many others will say the same.  You seem to have your motivation to keep strong which is obviously a very good thing.  Just remember, later down the line once you DO get through this, and the opportunity arises to possibly take a few again even if its just for fun...remember everything you're going through now and why you stopped in the first place.  For me, simply remembering the unbearable depression and awful mood swings I felt during WD has been more then enough for me to turn down any offerings I've received in the past 2 1/2 months.  

Keep in mind, a lot of the mental aspect along with the physical aspect is chemical as well.  Using supplements like vitamin b-6 and L-tyrosine can help smooth out your brain functions and kick start everything again.  You have to remember, you've abused your body this long, it's going to need a little while to recover - but it will.  Both of those supplements within a week of taking them really helped increase my energy and positive moods and was a huge help in the WD process, especially mentally.  Keep us updated my friend.

[Prayn4better]

First off, PRAY. If you don't. Then start, if you do, continue even harder. I am much like you. I have an addiction to hydrocodone. It all started with a ruptured ovarian cysts, polycystic ovaries, and now severe chronic pelvic pain. And endodemetriosis. You must taper off. Reduce your intake. It works. This I know for sure. Its also not a bad idea to seek professional help. You have done well so far, and I hope that you will continue. I think you are almost out of the woods! All the best to you!