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[JD1885]

Hello,

I'm posting this because I'm really sick and tired of being addicted to pain killers.  I've been off and on hydrocodone and oxycodone for about 5 years.  It all started at work with a bunch of guys who always had them.  It was cool at first for us all to pop a few and work and laugh together.  But now, I'm older and married with two kids and this crap is ruining my life.  Before, it never got to the point where I was going thru withdrawals when I wouldn't take them but now I've found a steady supply and I take usually 3 - 6 a day.  And at $6 a piece, it's ruining my life.  I am already broke, heading for divorce, and I'm sure it can only get worse from there.  I won't go to rehab or a doctor, I just have to quit.  I have before for a few weeks and then somehow, like a *******, wind up back at the guy's house buying more.  I joined this forum for a little support.

Thanks

[JD1885]

Thanks for your support.  This site has been great.  It's nice logging on and several people have sent me best wishes and asking how I am.  How are you BK?  Are you hanging in there?

[Bkitty]

Hanging in there JD,,day 26 for me. Looking forward to that 30 milestone this week. Keeping my gaurd up and attending aftercare and NA. Going back to work tomm,,Im a lil nervous I can do it. Hang in there and stay strong!! ~Bkitty

[selfinduced]

HA! Yes, Christmas is coming, wouldn't you rather buy presents than pills? Seriously, remember with the cravings, it is just your unhealed brain fooling you. You'll never get the high you once had and it will just set you back. I know you realize this. Just helps to be reminded. Wishing you a peaceful day , your doing amazing!

[GA_need_help]

JD,
You are doing an awesome job l  I have a great feeling that you are going to come through this so well !  Keep your eyes on where you are going Soon the struggle will be a memory you can tap into at will, and use to help others in their times of greatest need.  From your posts, you have a heart for helping and serving others.  God will make it possible for you to encourage so many when they are feeling hope!

Big Hug. I am here for you.
Marie

[JD1885]

Awesome job!  26 days!!! wow.  It seems to get a little easier every day.  BUt just a little easier.  30 days is going to feel great for you.  It seems too, that Karma gets back on your side when you are staying clean.  I know you will make it to 30 days and beyond...It will be great looking back with a clear headed and thinking "What the ?F*ck was I thinking???!!!!

Congrats on 26 though, it's awesome.  Keep on keeping on!

[JD1885]

Thanks for your positive thoughts and wishes!  And for the Hug!  I have quit before more or less, really involuntary - I couldn't score before vacation, he would run out for a week or so, etc...but I've never just kept living my day to day life of work and home and been able to go 7 days without swallowing pills.  I'm already seeing a small difference money wise, and seeing a big difference in the way I feel about myself - which in turn - lets me have a better relationship with my wife.  The only thing I'm hiding from her now is her Christmas presents......and maybe my secret love for Eva Mendes!  HaHa   Hope you are doing well!  Thanks again.