HELL

[stilltrying1965]

Today i am in hell Going toe to toe with the devil himself . I feel i cant cope with this sh... I am in real agony. This morning my dealer came to the door this morning said he was worried about me coz the phone had been off all weekend (more like the £300 he has not got off me over the weekend) But i have to admit i was tempted really tempted but i never gave into him but i told him this is my mums house dont ever come here again am not having that not at my mums no way. But i think he is getting the message i hope so anyway but im rattling really badly and i know it is going to get worse no doubt about that a lot worse than ever before but still in fighting mode. When the dealer went away i came came in and actually cried but i looked at all my messages from all my freinds here and it stopped me running out to shout him backThank you my new found freinds use no who you are my special friends thank you all  

[gizzy32]

I am so so so proud of you man. Just keep remembering why your doing this. I have to admit i thought about you last night and hearing you fighting through, getting rid of dealers made me smile this morning. You are quitting probably the hardest drug and even though it`s hell right now, it will pass. I am so sorry your going through this, but i can see how determined you are these past few days. You are inspiration to all of us although we may have you in clean days, this fight we get to see helps us all. Tomorrow you can get your diazepam and i hope you get some rest. I just want you to know we are very proud of you, your a strong man. Hang in there buddy and keep us updated. Your son is proud of you. Congrats on day 2, hehe

[starfish1963]

WhooooHoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTG!!!!

[aws01]

Great Job !   I know when I was going thru withdrawals and the devil was with me,  I made it by staying clean a second at a time... then a minute at a time.... a day at a time,  whatever you have to tell yourself to make it thru.  Now I have 165 days clean today.  I know you can do it. Keep the faith my friend.   April

[cathy5841]

wow you sent your dealer on his way.  thats real progress.  keep going you can do this.  we are here to help ya.  keep going just a minute at atime right now.

[melodie79]

I am so proud of you as well..  good job.   I also think you  should tell the dealer  you quit so he does not keep calling you and stopping by.  good luck james..  melodie

[10356]

Ahh James I'm so proud of you.. Another piece of your life you got back.. You are no longer are a slave to that *****.. I know you are hurting.. I know your wife is hurting.. It will not last forever.. You are entering the 2 worst days of detox..  You can do this... You are moving into your 3rd day.. You guys are awesome.. You are a example to all of us.. when the desire is stronger the the need.. GTMI quotes that and I had never seen it so true.. Hang in there you are half way through.. You are doing it james.. I so happy for you.. I do not think your wife is going to have to be the strong one all the time anymore.. You know what is up if you do not win this.. You have too win this.. Your family your future depends on it.. What doesn't kill us will make us stronger... Dancing toe to toe with the devil.. This is one fight the devil is going to loose...  I'm just so darn proud of you.. Sent the dealer packing..............................................