HELL

[stilltrying1965]

Today i am in hell Going toe to toe with the devil himself . I feel i cant cope with this sh... I am in real agony. This morning my dealer came to the door this morning said he was worried about me coz the phone had been off all weekend (more like the £300 he has not got off me over the weekend) But i have to admit i was tempted really tempted but i never gave into him but i told him this is my mums house dont ever come here again am not having that not at my mums no way. But i think he is getting the message i hope so anyway but im rattling really badly and i know it is going to get worse no doubt about that a lot worse than ever before but still in fighting mode. When the dealer went away i came came in and actually cried but i looked at all my messages from all my freinds here and it stopped me running out to shout him backThank you my new found freinds use no who you are my special friends thank you all  

[road2recovery]

TO wake up and read something like this is the way to start my day...TO actually send him away when you are hurting so bad, is incrediable....YOU got this!!!
We are here for you, and you can do this...."Life is good clean"
r2r

[LIZZIE LOU]

you've decided you've had enough.
you're facing your demons and doing something about it.
you sent your dealer "packing".

you should be so proud of what you've already accomplished...i know i am :)   keep up the fight...keep that committment firm.  the rewards gained will be 10 fold what any drug can give you.