YES...You can do this!!!! She's around. I'm sure she'll pop in sooner than later. We're always checking on each other as we beat this hell together. It's really nice to find someone in the same situation as yourself. There are a lot of posts of people at the same stage as you...friend one and do it together. We had some really bad days but we stuck it out together and became close friends after the devil was gone.
You are welcome...
"Why cant I be a normal person?" is a question i though about a lot. But when you say this now, I must say: normal is a relative thing. And you are "normal". You just lost yourself somewhere on the way, and you are not the only one. It just happens. To a lot of people...
You feel guilty. And that˙s not so weird. But don`t do that. At least try. That kills your power. You did some things you are not proud of, but we all did. Every person. and I totally understands how you feel, but try not to bother yourself w/this now, try to focus on staying clean. You will have a lot of time to analyze past, but now it`s time for you to focus on new page you are turning in your life... Try not to think about all the bad things, that makes some negative energy and makes you more vulnerable...
you feel bad because you reach this point. when we run away from reality it is hard to see ourselves and that`s how you ended up here. and now you are going back to real world so all this (negative) feelings, trapped inside of you, are getting out. But don`t let them to overpower you. Because this time is different. This time you can do it. And you will succeed...
You have a choice. And you are strong enough to manipulate yourself to think positive. You can blame yourself or not. You can think "no one is stupid like me" (even though deep inside you know that`s not realistically true), or "worse stuff had happen. At least I didn`t kill anyone or took somebody else`s life and choice". I think that`s the worst thing person can do.And you didn`t...
what happened to pillnomore...i was looking for her and havent seen her on here today. You and her were a lot of help to me last time I attempted this. Have a feeling I am going to need everyones help for a long time to come. BUT I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!
LOL...no maaam. Pillsnomore is FAMOUS for capitalizing certain words. She's ADDICTING!!!! =D
YOU WOULDN'T BE TALKING ABOUT ME WOULD YOU EASY??? LOL!!!
Very good...you have no choice but to do this. I know you are tired of living in a fog, always looking at the stupid clock and calculating when you can take another pill, and praying every day that you just want to be normal again. Like it or not, we are all DIFFERENT on these pills. I never believed that until I was done. I was not the same and I HATED that person. Over 40 days clean now and I haven't thought about the devil in weeks. I even had guys doing them right in front of me and I almost puked looking at them. I promise...you WILL get there. I had sooooo much to live for before I stopped...I now have soooooo much MORE to live for.