so the other day I agreed to try cocaine for the first time. My BF made some short calls and we were already om our way to pick some up. He said he has been off for months, but we also had a lot of disagreements during that time and haven't seen each other much... anyways, so we started drinking first, he said it would be better that way, and did the first lines in the car on our way home. at home we did the rest. I dont know how much in gram or whatever we took. it was tree tiny bags which we split evenly. everything was fine, i felt less drunk etc... and then we went to this bar, he "reasendly" found and told me that ppl supposely are selling here and that i should go around and ask for white or whatever... well, we didnt get any so we went back home. he just reasendly has had 2 seizures in a row and is not allowed to drive (he is not taking his medicine for it of course) also i didnt want him to end up in jail if he gets pulled over, i didnt care about myself. I almost caused a mass car accident on the highway, but lucky me, nothing happened and all the cars saw how i lost control of the truck and spinned 180. i just turned back around and kept going, off the highway (home was only 1 exit away from there). so at home he was mad at me for almost killing us and went upstairs. i stayed downstairs for a while but i was so restless i went for a walk. after just a little bit i felt exhausted and super thursty. i sat down on a side curb off the road. i had to lay down i was so exhausted. then i started to breath very funny, iregular and faster and faster (about 2 or 3 hours after intake)... i started to get nervouse but i was not able to move. i tryed to call him and texted him to please come get me, spoke on his voicemail... but nothing ever came back. so i just layed there... when i felt a little better and litterally thought about surching the trashcan for a bottle with rest of watter in it or sip on the puddle of mud a couple feet next to me. i made myself get up and started to walk back home. i have never been that thursty in my life. and weak. barely able to even hold my phone in my hand. when i made it back home i drank like a gallon of water and sat down. and i started breathing funny again (this is like 6 hours past the intake). i tryed to walk up the stairs to him but didnt make it, so i just waited at the buttom of the stairs hoping he would hear me gasping for air... as soon as i felt better i crawled up the stairs and sat next to him on the bed, i had to wake him up, told him i dont feel well. and shortly after i started breathing funny again, faster and faster like the first time but it lasted longer. i just layed on the bed thinking i will die (i dont do any drugs, i tryed weed once and i drink every here and there, but thats it, i dont even like taking drugs when im sick, rather stick to tea etc...) he just stood next to me asking me to tell him what the matter is. i wasnt able to talk, i just started crying. he didnt do anything and when i calmed down, which litterally was when i stopped breathing for a couple of seconds, not able to take a breath, then he touched my pulse, making sure i was alive and layed back down next to me. i fall asleep after that, it feels more like talking about a dream. next thing i know i wake up him having sex with me. the next morning i was still feeling funny, like a zombi. and i took a cold shower. i never take cold showers, but everything else felt hot! even he was wearded out when he jumped in and the water was too cold for him! i almost fainted during shower, so i sat down for a bit. i thought i just needed to eat or so. so i got some fast food... So, what i am going with here is, i dont know if what i felt after the cocaine was normal or not?! i havent talked to him since he was still mad at me and when i tried to ask him the next day why he didnt help me he laughted and didnt take me serious. have i had a toxic reaction or was that normal?!