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Its That Time! November 2014 Roll Call!!
Yes, its that time for our monthly roll call. Every month less and less people sign it and check in. We used to have 80+ posts and now were down to half that. It seems like there's less traffic on the site...maybe there's less people that need to get clean...less people using. If that's the case, then good.
So, post your clean time or just introduce yourself. You dont have to be clean to post on the roll call. Lurkers are encouraged and welcomed! We want to meet and hear from you. So if your thinking about getting clean or have been clean for a billion years, we'd love to hear about it. Please share! Spread the message of hope!
Oh, and by the way...its my 37th birthday!
So, post your clean time or just introduce yourself. You dont have to be clean to post on the roll call. Lurkers are encouraged and welcomed! We want to meet and hear from you. So if your thinking about getting clean or have been clean for a billion years, we'd love to hear about it. Please share! Spread the message of hope!
Oh, and by the way...its my 37th birthday!
I do see less and less members posting too. It doesn't matter how much time you have. One day is fantastic! Tone hundred days is fantastic! Each and every one of you keep me clean no matter of your clean time. My ticker says I have 2,612 days. I got that one day at a time. Never give up folks, there is hope for everyone.
Woohoo! Happy Birthday ABN. My ticker says over 1000 days- and that is true. I have been living a life of recovery for over 1000 days. However, I've been going through the worst medical crisis of my life these past 9 months and am 3 weeks post-op. This week I begin a long, slow taper off the pain meds that I've needed to take to function since April. My pain is still debilitating at this point, but I am hopeful that each day that passes it will lessen and in a couple short months I will once again be PILL free!!! I know that I will never live a pain free life. But I do not want to live on opiates, because that is no life at all. I have made peace with these past 7 months of taking pills however, I know that I would not have been able to hold on to my business or my sanity without them. But I also know that I will be much happier once I am healed and off of them. I have ZERO desire to be the person I once was who needed a pill to get out of bed in the morning.
I am extremely grateful to all of my good friends on this site who have been a great support system to me. I love you all and wish you all many clean and happy days.
Love
Lu
I am extremely grateful to all of my good friends on this site who have been a great support system to me. I love you all and wish you all many clean and happy days.
Love
Lu
36 days drug free. Relearning to live one day at a time... completely turned things around academically and at midterms had a 3.25/4 - which was a couple weeks ago. School has been a blessing in disguise along with attending meetings. I stay busy and it definitely helps. Sleep is ~5-6 hours a night. I've learned making breakfast every morning (mmm turkey bacon egg & cheese on an english muffin) is fun and delicious. I used to just stop at a tim hortons or starbucks and grab a huge coffee and muffin, this new life is way better. I go to the gym 4 days a week to lift, I force myself to do cardio. I dread running but love the benefits it gives me physically and mentally & once I get going I like to go further and/or faster than the day before.
I found out that I'm actually ahead of where I thought I was academically and will be transferring from the community college to the 4-year of my choice an entire semester ahead. I for once enjoy going to school not in a haze (whether it was on weed or opiates) and actively participating in discussions and questions.. well besides my English class - why does someone pursuing physical education have to take an English class?? Eh, either way I have an A in there. The program for school I'm in now will have me extremely farther ahead of other students going after the same degree.
So I'm ultimately happy where I'm at! I wish I had more time to post here, but I'm really focused on myself at the moment. Hope everyone's Halloween was great and is ready for some winter weather and the holidays coming up!
(Not so) Hurtin
I found out that I'm actually ahead of where I thought I was academically and will be transferring from the community college to the 4-year of my choice an entire semester ahead. I for once enjoy going to school not in a haze (whether it was on weed or opiates) and actively participating in discussions and questions.. well besides my English class - why does someone pursuing physical education have to take an English class?? Eh, either way I have an A in there. The program for school I'm in now will have me extremely farther ahead of other students going after the same degree.
So I'm ultimately happy where I'm at! I wish I had more time to post here, but I'm really focused on myself at the moment. Hope everyone's Halloween was great and is ready for some winter weather and the holidays coming up!
(Not so) Hurtin
WELL!!!! It has been a Journey for sure with lots of good and bad. Lots of Heartaches as most of my MH Family knows what has & had happen..I have been changing many things to help me stay on the path. I got a Therapist for the first time in my Life at the age 58. Staying very close to Church and talking with the Preacher alot too. Been using this or that for over 40 years and I sure would love to take it all back and do life without the demon. BUT it is what it is and I think I turned out to be OK. My circle around my house has been broken and I do miss talking about all of this with my Mom who lived on my property. Plus I miss my Happy Boy Whiteface and so does his Sister..Also my Dad who was so kind and supporting.. My Heart thing scares me sometimes and makes me SO mad. BUT I am a trooper like my Mom was and I will continue to do anything it takes to stay clean.
I KNOW OTHERS HAVE HAD MANY HEARTACHES ALONG THE WAY TOO..I AM NOT ALONE AND MANY HAD IT WAY WORSE..(No Pity Party just venting) lol
769 off of Prescription & Street Drugs
3857 staying off the Bar stool and out of the liquor store
Ciggs...Well that is one of the main reasons I got 2 blocked arteries plus the past..I still take a puff here & there which is the worst thing I can be doing right now!!! Did not even smoke until my later 30s and it was only when I went to the Bar..Then it got worse when I would get all jacked up..NOW this one is so Flippen hard and I thought it would be a piece of cake. ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!
I do miss SO many people on here that where here when I started a couple of years ago and the newer ones that came after..I think of them often and Pray that they are just LIVING their Life and not out there using again!!
Bless U ALL my Angles that I can not see but I know you are out here.
I KNOW OTHERS HAVE HAD MANY HEARTACHES ALONG THE WAY TOO..I AM NOT ALONE AND MANY HAD IT WAY WORSE..(No Pity Party just venting) lol
769 off of Prescription & Street Drugs
3857 staying off the Bar stool and out of the liquor store
Ciggs...Well that is one of the main reasons I got 2 blocked arteries plus the past..I still take a puff here & there which is the worst thing I can be doing right now!!! Did not even smoke until my later 30s and it was only when I went to the Bar..Then it got worse when I would get all jacked up..NOW this one is so Flippen hard and I thought it would be a piece of cake. ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!
I do miss SO many people on here that where here when I started a couple of years ago and the newer ones that came after..I think of them often and Pray that they are just LIVING their Life and not out there using again!!
Bless U ALL my Angles that I can not see but I know you are out here.
Honestly I have no idea. I stopped counting. I know it is a huge accomplishment but I just lost track. Thinking around 6 mos ish.
Hey there. New guy here working on 60 days today. The struggle continues but this place has been a blessing. Thanks.
COMMUNITY LEADER
Today makes 10 months for me. Had a great time at our N/A halloween party last night. Some of our guys came as girls, they were actually pretty good!
Life is different, not always great, but i wouldnt trade my worst day now for my best one high!
BTW.....happy birthday ABN....
Life is different, not always great, but i wouldnt trade my worst day now for my best one high!
BTW.....happy birthday ABN....
COMMUNITY LEADER
Today makes 10 months for me. Had a great time at our N/A halloween party last night. Some of our guys came as girls, they were actually pretty good!
Life is different, not always great, but i wouldnt trade my worst day now for my best one high!
BTW.....happy birthday ABN....
Life is different, not always great, but i wouldnt trade my worst day now for my best one high!
BTW.....happy birthday ABN....
Gonna chime in: I have 135 days today, otherwise known as 4 and 1/2 months. Screw the day count...I'm countin' the months now. Come on 6 mos!!
I'm only entering day 2, and just hope that I can be able to post successful stories like you all have. Congrats to all of you on your long time staying on the path. You are encouragement to newbies like myself. It feel like one heck of a mountain to climb, but its nice to know that others have made it up there. Thanks to all of you.
P.S.- Happy birthday ABN. And for you newbies, I tried and tried (and tried) on my own to quit. Always went back. Once I started aftercare (meetings) it's been a completely different story.
Happy birthday ABN!! I too am 37 :)
I'm going on day 8 of A long Tramadol addiction and I'm trying so hard to tell myself I'm better off without the pills. Of course I am, I know that, but the depression and desire for the pills has almost overshadowed every thing else. I have been trying to keep busy and not turn to just sitting around sad and depressed.
I'm grateful for this board and all of the kind people on it.
I'm going on day 8 of A long Tramadol addiction and I'm trying so hard to tell myself I'm better off without the pills. Of course I am, I know that, but the depression and desire for the pills has almost overshadowed every thing else. I have been trying to keep busy and not turn to just sitting around sad and depressed.
I'm grateful for this board and all of the kind people on it.
@ Sheelie, congrats on the 8 days! Thanks for the happy birthday!
@ jifmoc 6 months will be here in no time, thanks for the happy birthday! Glad to see you contributing on here!
@ tyguy congrats on day 2! It gets better my friend!
@motye congrats on the 10 months! Glad you stuck around here! Thanks for the happy birthday!
@ Hey refills, congrats on the 60 days my friend!
@ Merri congrats on your clean time! Huge accomplishment!
@ Vic Congrats and thanks for all you do
@ hurtin congrats on 36 days! Glad your not hurtin so much anymore! Thats great to hear!
@ Lu Thanks for the happy birthday and congrats on all your clean time 1000+ days is huge! Glad your still around here.
@ IBK well, what can I say to you....you make recovery look good! Thanks for inspiring others like myself to want to get to where your at. Congrats and thanks for all you do.
@ jifmoc 6 months will be here in no time, thanks for the happy birthday! Glad to see you contributing on here!
@ tyguy congrats on day 2! It gets better my friend!
@motye congrats on the 10 months! Glad you stuck around here! Thanks for the happy birthday!
@ Hey refills, congrats on the 60 days my friend!
@ Merri congrats on your clean time! Huge accomplishment!
@ Vic Congrats and thanks for all you do
@ hurtin congrats on 36 days! Glad your not hurtin so much anymore! Thats great to hear!
@ Lu Thanks for the happy birthday and congrats on all your clean time 1000+ days is huge! Glad your still around here.
@ IBK well, what can I say to you....you make recovery look good! Thanks for inspiring others like myself to want to get to where your at. Congrats and thanks for all you do.
Hi...im grateful to be here and be here clean....weather you got 1 day or many years we are all faced with the same question when we wake up......''am I going to use or stay clean'' it is important for all of us to do this ''just for today''....tomorrow will come with all the unknowns live in today dont dwell on yesterday as for me I got 1840 days clean from my Nemesis methadone and now 40mo clean from bensos if your new keep pushing forward this is a game one in baby steps just know it is so so worth it and please please put aftercare in your life I could not do this without the help and support of N/A and I recamend it to everyone just because you stoped the pills is mute your still a addict inside N/A will give you a program that gives your life structure something most addicts dont have if it will work for a old dope fiend like me it will work for any body keep up the good fight and I hope to see you all here next month
........................................Gnarly.....................................
........................................Gnarly.....................................
Wowzers!! Grats everybody! 434 days.........I still keep count, lol learning something new everyday. love hugs hope and peace to you all! xo
Today is 37 for me. Still not feeling 100%. Good days, then bad days. Last 2 nights, very little sleep punctuated by nightmares. Tummy troubles still pretty bad, but I had them before the opiates so they're to be expected.
I wasn't living my real life on oxycodone. Everything was smoothed out; I was numb, pain-free, and not aware AT ALL of what the REAL STATE OF MY HEALTH was. It scares me to think of it now. I know that I MUST take better care of my body than I was on opiates.
The scariest thing for me is that I realized I cannot continue in my career without pain pills. I've been in cold-call commission only sales for 15 years, and everyone I know who does it takes pain pills. You HAVE to take pain pills to punish your body, mind and spirit with this type of work---it's downright abusive. I cannot believe what I have put myself through! No one cares what you do to yourself as long as you Win-Win-Win! It's all "work hard-play hard!" and "those who die with the most toys WINS!"
Insanity, pure insanity. I see that now. All the vacations I won (I sell insurance; the big corporations love to send their top sales people to the Caribbean every year so they can get drunk out of their minds and pretend they aren't on their way to a major heart attack or stroke.) The good old boys club. The 80 hour workweeks. Good is NEVER good enough. You hit one bar and they move it up even higher.
No more. I cannot do this to myself or my body. I'm over 50 now. Started in my late 30's and didn't notice how bad it was...then 8 years ago, got put on oxycodone for severe muscle spasm in my back, spinal issues constochondritis (gee I wonder why? I'm only typing on a laptop 10 hours a day, writing policies and filling out ENDLESS sales projections so the big execs at the top can drool over what new car they will buy the next fiscal quarter.)
My body was trying to tell me something and the pills told it to SHUT UP. They created a false sense of myself. I feel like I'm just beginning to find out who I am.
Sorry this is so long. This is still very, very hard. I do not consider myself an addict, but I DEFINITELY had a dependency, a hard one. I jumped after weaning myself down to 10 mgs of oxycodone a day, and it was one of the worst experiences of my LIFE. As I said, I'm a million times better than I was that first 10 days, but I still do not feel good. I attend meetings on line, talk to others, and I will never put a narcotic in my body again unless there is literally NO OTHER CHOICE (ex. if I was in a major car accident and needed life-saving surgery.)
This is a journey, and I'm KICKING myself for waiting so long to start it. If I only had my life to do over again. But...can't go back, must move forward.
Thank you, MH. I could not have done this without the support of folks on here. You have been my lifeline for the past 37 days. Blessings,
Robin
I wasn't living my real life on oxycodone. Everything was smoothed out; I was numb, pain-free, and not aware AT ALL of what the REAL STATE OF MY HEALTH was. It scares me to think of it now. I know that I MUST take better care of my body than I was on opiates.
The scariest thing for me is that I realized I cannot continue in my career without pain pills. I've been in cold-call commission only sales for 15 years, and everyone I know who does it takes pain pills. You HAVE to take pain pills to punish your body, mind and spirit with this type of work---it's downright abusive. I cannot believe what I have put myself through! No one cares what you do to yourself as long as you Win-Win-Win! It's all "work hard-play hard!" and "those who die with the most toys WINS!"
Insanity, pure insanity. I see that now. All the vacations I won (I sell insurance; the big corporations love to send their top sales people to the Caribbean every year so they can get drunk out of their minds and pretend they aren't on their way to a major heart attack or stroke.) The good old boys club. The 80 hour workweeks. Good is NEVER good enough. You hit one bar and they move it up even higher.
No more. I cannot do this to myself or my body. I'm over 50 now. Started in my late 30's and didn't notice how bad it was...then 8 years ago, got put on oxycodone for severe muscle spasm in my back, spinal issues constochondritis (gee I wonder why? I'm only typing on a laptop 10 hours a day, writing policies and filling out ENDLESS sales projections so the big execs at the top can drool over what new car they will buy the next fiscal quarter.)
My body was trying to tell me something and the pills told it to SHUT UP. They created a false sense of myself. I feel like I'm just beginning to find out who I am.
Sorry this is so long. This is still very, very hard. I do not consider myself an addict, but I DEFINITELY had a dependency, a hard one. I jumped after weaning myself down to 10 mgs of oxycodone a day, and it was one of the worst experiences of my LIFE. As I said, I'm a million times better than I was that first 10 days, but I still do not feel good. I attend meetings on line, talk to others, and I will never put a narcotic in my body again unless there is literally NO OTHER CHOICE (ex. if I was in a major car accident and needed life-saving surgery.)
This is a journey, and I'm KICKING myself for waiting so long to start it. If I only had my life to do over again. But...can't go back, must move forward.
Thank you, MH. I could not have done this without the support of folks on here. You have been my lifeline for the past 37 days. Blessings,
Robin
285 days here. At the beginning of detox I could never imagine the difference in my life. Ive had to get real with myself and quit listening to the addict brain. At first this was so difficult but everytime I change my thinking the insistance of the addict brain gets less intensive. I now know I must keep my guard up and keep checking myself for the rest of my life but thats okay cause I do have a life now and its pretty good and worth protecting. So if you are new keep fighting you are worth it!
Thanks abn for post and HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
Thanks abn for post and HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
Happy birthday!! Today is 9months drug and alcohol free!!! Cant believe i made it!!!
228 days off opiates....lurking but not posting.
Congrats to all!
Happy Birthday ABN~
Congrats to all!
Happy Birthday ABN~
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