Losing my resolve

[Cantdothisanymore]

not sure if i am posting this right. but on my earlier post I mentioned a call  about available vics..... its haunting me - how do I not give in? they were always so hard to get and now here they are practically f'ing gift wrappppppped! 6 days?   will it be this bad again if i give in for just a day or two?

[Cantdothisanymore]

and what on earth could be more powerful? the compassion that i have found here - with you DAV ( my first )  encouraging male that contacted me. you are attributed in my mind with helping to save my life. your one of the first who spoke with me and your words stopped me from jumping in my car on a vic run. not to say it may not still happen but you averted the first one for me - I could never repay your selflessness.

[Dav125]

Compassion is a rare commodity these days. Thank God this site is powered by it. Nothing phony to be found in here..The true inner spirit in all of us is alive and well here. And the best part is being able to share it and know you may have saved a life by doing so..

[Cantdothisanymore]

cant really respond right now...too hard to type with tears in my eyes.....thank you. this is a battle - a war - i never thought i would find myself in but you guys are one hell of a team to fight it with me. your hearts must be made of gold and i could not ever in my life be more thankful for anything. stay with me.

[sunshine1109]

I am here for you...YES YOU CAN DO IT..you are stronger then you give yourself credit for if you weren't you wouldnt be doing what your doing now and fighting this fight. You wouldnt be on here for support.  I am keeping up with SAD also I dont want to see anyone lose this battle.  I am so disgusted with this disease and what it has done to beautiful lives. We are all God's children and he wants us happy and well, he has brought me through many trials and tribulations and he is watching over each and every one of us.  Remember moment to moment, we cant live in the past and we cant live in the future we have to live for today. Stay strong...Sunshine

[gnarly_1]

HI I have been following your story and your doing great sorry to here about your struggles with cravings but aftercare will help that....without it I would have crached abnd burned many times over...with it life can become a manageable place again...as far as craving go
if you take them at face value and deal with them they usually only last 10min to a 1/2 hr
your not responsible for the first thought....its what you do with it that can make or break you...first its a thought ...right then and there you need to start the self talk....is this rational thinking?? or is it the addict in me...you need to focus on trhe positive things in sobriety you no longer chained to a pill bottle you have your life back...you want to keep your clean time pills are no longer an option...if you use the self talk you will get your mind off the cravings b/4 you start to obsesses on it once it becomes an obsession we dwell on it and it gnaws on you...if not stoped it can very well become an action...this is why it is so important to plug into some sort of aftercare it will teach you the skills and give you the tools to help you thew this kind of stuff...hang in there your doing great but treat the addiction its not just going to go away good luck and God bless......Gnarly        

[Cantdothisanymore]

knowing that you are here for me.....reading the sincerity of your words....you inspire me. thank you from the bottom of my heart.  YOU DID IT!  I can too!  Stay with me and please pray for SAD. I am getting the feeling she is not that strong, just like me.