~Methadone 6+yrs for Migraines - I WANT OFF~

[slopez27]

I have been on Methadone 2 * 10mg every night at bedtime. I started taking on my doc's recommendation. I wish I would have listened to myself. This medicine scared me. I started it & I was thanking GOD & my doc because my Migraines were 100% gone. For the first time in years I had no pain!

After being on it for so long I want off. I stepped down to 1 pill in 1/2 pill doses. I did fine with most of the symptoms. When I got to 1 pill I started waking up in the morning & my brain was going 90 mph about stupid things - Like: lint, where does it come from, how does it get trapped in the lint trap, why do you only find it after your clothes go in the dryer??? = tooth picks - I wonder how many toothpicks you get out of one tree... Just stupid things that came at me so fast & made no sense. I could not get my brain to shut up!!! I would lay in bed for 45 minutes & I could not will myself up & out of bed to get ready for work.

I went back up to 1.5 pills. I have been here for 3 months. I am scared to go back down. I have no mental history or issues. I have a clean bill of health other than the Methadone. I do take Flexeril to sleep at night. I want off this medicine so bad. I am a Kaiser member. Kaiser wanted to give me Prozac... NO THANK YOU! They also wanted me to go to Group Therapy to help me deal with getting off this medicine. I have a very supportive family & friends. I don't need to talk to anyone> I just need to get this drug out of my system. I have tried to quit cold turkey in the past. I do good for about 3 hours & then I start with the mind games I play with myself. It *****! I don't like the way the lack of Methadone forces me to play mind games.

I want help getting off. Kaiser seems unable to help unless I see a Psych doc. I don't want any of that in my file! I have heard horrible things about what happens at Kaiser once that stuff gets written in your file. Every time you are seen or you call for advice they ask you " Are you thinking of harming yourself or others?" At least that is what I have heard... I could be wrong. I am just scared & want off desperately!

ADVISE???

[slopez27]

You guys are wonderful! I am researching everything as much as I can. I am on the phone with Kaiser member services to see if this is something that Kaiser does do. And if they don't if it is something that will reimburse me for. I doubt that they will, but I have to try.  I really think that this Suboxone stuff could do the trick for me. It seems like it will be hard but not unbearable. With you guys cheering me along I know I could get through it

Thanks again for everything!!!

[krissy30]

Feel free to send me a note or a message.  I sometimes take a break from this computer.  (it tends to give me migraines).  and I don't want to miss your post....so feel free to send to me directly if you get no response on this thread....although I try not to forget threads, I am an addict and do tend to forget. LOL  

Crystal

[krissy30]

sorry, I was posted and never even got a chance to read yours....thanx, i thought it was but wanted to look it up before I gave her the wrong info.

[krissy30]

Yes, just as I thought, it's suboxone, do some research and decided if that's what you really want....there is no quick fix....it takes work and if you do it right, there will be some discomfort....look into the detox like the one gooberman uses where you are only on a Opiate-like substance for a few days.  Just to get you through the worst of it....you may be uncomfortable for a few days after that, but at least you won't just be trading Methadone for suboxone.  They usually try to keep people on suboxone for at least 30 days, but then you have to taper off of that.  Just do some research and check it out.  $3 grand is a lot of money!  Especially when you can get suboxone from a licensed Dr. for cheaper.

[avisg]

krissy no it is it the generic name for sub

[krissy30]

ok, if I am not mistaken, the beprenorphine is pretty much suboxone, (I could be wrong, look it up)  That is better than Methadone, but still dangerous and can be hard to get off of.  I don't think you will have much of a prob.  You are not on a high dose of Methadone, and shouldn't be on buprenorphine for long so it shouldn't be an issue, but there is no quick fixes, so look into.  All these places are usually only interested in one thing....

I am going to look up the med real quick.  But, be careful....you don't want to exchange one thing for another and be sure that they know you are not an addicted by choice, that you werent' on Methadone b/c of addiction.  IT does make a difference!