Well , it is almost 5:30..this has been THE longest night save childbirth: (which was far worse).. I did that a la natural. So I can get through this I suppose, I completely rambling. The on slaught of awareness is startling. I can almost feel everything I didn't feel for the past 7 years bc come to think of it-I got myself in this mess with ultram first and worked my way up the pain management ladder. Sad.any comments would be fine.
Inga
Well hopefully it's 3:15 AM. Still gone down every rabit trail in my brain. Covered all the "what if's" in my life. LOL.never helps anyway, I guess that's what this drug does shuts down all the places that you are too afraid to go otherwise in your mind. Takes courage to face them.
I will make it thru to 6 AM, I'm good.
Inga
I'm so sorry, but hopefully sooner than later you'll be able to get some sort of rest!
Yep, it's 1 AM. Still up. I would sleep for twelve hours on those dones easy. this is madness. I am staring at the ceiling, yawning and tearing but I am not giving in. Thnx for the encouragement. I am done being trapped. I truly want to be free more than I want relief. Please pray. I am pounding water.
Did the doctors put you on any other medications to go home with when you left the actual hospital? The reason why I ask, is because sometimes those meds can factor into whatever it is you're going through. I went through my WDs without the assistance of any medications or physician's watching over me. If I can get through it without these, so can you! You're a strong woman, and keep in mind that you're not only doing this for you -- but you're doing this for your kids as well.
I know one thing that really helped me get through my WD was reading this site. I never signed up, posted or anything else -- I just sat back in bed and read what others had to say to one another in their darkest hours and times of need. One of the most helpful things that got me through was going outside in the sun.
hey ingrid,
oh boy forgot more words.(correction) life is so much clearer with all the poisons and toxins OUT OF YOUR BODY. do you have anyone close to you that you can confide in and talk to? or get you things from the store? it would be great if you had someone who could just even come sit with you.... i like your name, i know a very dear woman from germany with your name she has been a blessing to us for many years.
yes just focus on yourself for right now.that is good to get your side of the fence clean. when my husband left the hospital he went into a christian drug and alcohol rehab for 3 months. it was tough on us, but much tougher when he was using. i have 4 children, a son 25, daughter who will be 20 this month and 2 younger sons 13 & 11. we are all healing, how old are your children? there is definitely happiness on the other side of the methadone madness (i always called it insanity). my husband is more healthy and happy now then he had been in 14 yrs. during his use. i know all about the mixed up tale we have (had) one too. but there is healing. time does heal our wounds and scars.
i will be thinking of you and sending you hugs,
debbie
Typically the physical stuff lasts around 5 to 7 days (I wasn't so typical as mine went on for about 2 weeks). And that's when the mental side of withdrawal really kicks in but the symptoms can be managed by a lot of different home remedies. What is your intent here? To give up all the drugs? If that's the case, it is possible to quit cold turkey - YES you will be uncomfortable for a while, but it will pass. Kind of like a really bad flu. And as I said, then you can manage those symptoms with various things - supplements, vitamins, and most importantly, some form of aftercare (i.e therapy, NA/AA, addictionologists, etc.)
And there are a lot of members here who have experience with the sub route, and I'm sure they can offer more insight into that process. It tends to get pretty quiet here on the weekends though but keep checking in I'm sure someone with that experience will respond to you.