Non Stop Addict

[iggy138]

hello my first post, if addiction was a educational acheivement i would have a phd, in sh@%head anyways i am drowning wish i could get off the train,..... i know 90 meetings in 90 days is the answer, ive done it, but dads cancer and everytyhing is a excuse im never shy to use. i need help making that first step.  i keep relapsing out of bordedom not even from being sick!  how f'riggin stupid is at?

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Many people use narcs as an antidepressant - thats not what they are for. Maybe you need a decent hobby.....something to keep you busy and occupied. My mother is dieing and I am a caregiver for her..... thats one thing that keeps me straight. I do not wish to be at any place but in top form to support my mother. I cant imagine being in an opiate fog for her last days. What a shame ..........Good luck to you - - it doesnt really sound like you wish to quit yet......at some point you will have had enough. And 90 meetings in 90 days is very good. However - the real answer lies within you.

[Ella789]

I hope that someday you will lose the pills and get into some counciling or na and be consumed with staying clean,  alot of people have detoxed, the real deal is staying clean.  I know that detox is painful, but so is staying useing.  Sometimes we just have to hit bottom and realize this can't keep going on.   We all understand addiction and the pitfalls, I wish it were easy to do but it isn't easy to stay clean.
Best wishes to you and sorry to hear abt. your Dad, I lost my Dad a yr. ago last Feb.


Ella