Oxycontin WD - 4th day-helpme

[mego579]

Im barely able to type right now.  I went on a trip to a remote house boat with freinds and discovered what WD really are. I'd been using oOxycontin up to 300 mg a day for about 2 years and while on the trip i thought it would be ok to break my 40 mg pills into 4ths and take them because i was running out with no chance of refill before the trip.  The WD started and the whole 4ths of a pill thing was out the window. They were gone before the first night and my freind had to confine me into a room of the house boat while they said i had seizures, screaming, begging to die, not sleeping in days until i was given Ketamine which is a drug i'd usually abused in the past and was familiar with but i'm not sure if it was a good idea or not becuase while in a K-hole i was able to stop the crazy leg shaking etc, but still felt everything jsut the same ( only being imobilized).  
Made it home, its day 4
my eyes are crazy dialeted still, my mind works but i cant communicate really yet without my voice shaking. i'm trying to eat ( the first night i puked like 30 times) but my stomach HURTS after. My skin is crawling.

I took the oxy in the first place because i have severe rhumetoid arthritis.
what do i do?
can i really ride this out here at home w/ my bf?(who was up for the whole time and is exhausted) - feeling better but thats not really saying much because i feel like HELL.
HELL!

how many days will this go on?
please

[mego579]

im  sure hoping its not cuz ive done alot of K and only cared for 1 overdoser who drank 2 viles stupidly.
i agree it was a stupid idea to take it though.

thank you so much. my plan as a good reminder to myself is a new tat that will tick the years of sobriety up in marks. sounds stupid but sometimes its good to have a big fat reminder in english on your arm FOREVER that reminds you what your goals really are!

the thomas recipe is helping the jitters alot.

i can def. see how this will be a difficult mind thing to overcome. i will count eachday as it passes as i see others do. it really helps actually. helps me feel like im overcoming a huge ladder one day at a time.

[jt808]

i like that tat idea keeps it as a reminder so eap after doing that u kno u can never relapse its permanitaly on ur body now!!! so good luck and stay strong...

[sportnut]

You can ride it out!
WD was tuff but I did it CT with help from this board.
Read my post "Back from 5th Rotator Cuff Surgery" and my previous posts.
Everyday is a victory and believe me you will need somethig down the road to manage pain and if you don't stop now nothing will work when you need it.
Hang in there.

[Ec131]

Hey There,

Hang in there!!! I was in the same boat you were in about a year ago. I was taking between 300-400 mg of Oxy's a day for (4) ruptured discs in my back and surgery to repair them, and then my doctor one day decided I was abusing the pills (you think) and stopped prescribing them to me and gave me Clonodine (if i spelled it right) to help with the withdrawals. Well they didn't help and I felt like DEATH for about 4-5 days. Each day after that got a little better. It is a tough road, but your on your way down the road already so just hang in there. It will get better and you will be so happy each day you feel a little better.

Take Care!!!!
Ec131

[mego579]

- update -

on a continuous acid trip it seems like with bouts of hellfire skin thats absolutly nuts. but i keep wanting to CLEAN - when i can stop writhing - i guess thats good - mabye taking psychadelics while w/d was a weird thing but it seems to reallly be effecting me today.
massive nerve ending craziess and acid eyes -
only i can't remember the last time i took acid and sat in a bath of fire :(

i hope tmrw is better

[mego579]

its almost 11pm, seriously the acid thing is getting stronger, i smoke perhaps its triggering it?