Oh there's my girl Vic. Yes I wonder who gave me my special name. The one and only VIC (moose lips)!!! You guys are all paving the way for me. I know what I have I do!! What can't we all just be closer to each other an should attend meetings together. That would be the ultimate comfort zone. I'm pretty shy And wonder if I would open up in big meeting. I've always been better one on one w people. Hence why I'm such a great hygienist. Bc I'm one on one w all my patients. I love it that way. Just have to find a place where I belong so I can heal !! I have to get myself better. I'm so tired if this crap!!!! Truly.
I listen to lies of the devil telling me I need a pill for this or that and I will be more sociable. It's all lies. Tired of listening to the lies. I will do this AFRAID Connie. That's a good one I have heard Joyce Meyer say over and over again. DO IT AFRAID!!!
Hi Chris good to see you found us.....well for starters your low enough to jump ship you can keep tapering but it is hard to do at the low doses your going to go threw some needless withdrawals for the next 5 weeks so jump ship and get a head start I came off 150mg over a 8 1/2 month taper the withdrawal is really no more intense then what your probable feeling now it is the duration of time to recovery that makes it hard.... your detox will last 10 days to 2 weeks then recovery depends on how long you where on it your age and how high of dose your coming off of for most it is not as bad as you think it will be if you choose to keep drooping dose start on the 3 in 1 vitamin calcium/magnezum/zinc it is 6 bucks at walmart take 4 with breakfast and 4 with dinner in a few days you will notice your withdrawals are cut in 1/2 I only wish I had found that sooner when I detox just know this...this is hard but it is doable every recovery is different for me 90 days was the beginning of recovery but I had a hard habit to break for some 30 days will do it of you where not on it long and your dose was always low most people fall into the 60 to 90 day deal you do get better but it is slowly the 2 worst symptoms are the lack of sleep and the ''energy crash'' I also recamend whey protein shake mix again walmart for 15 bucks a 2lb can drink 2 a day this will give you the amino acids as well as raw protein to help with the energy the chocolate flavor is good mixed with milk keep posting for support we have a lot of members who have kicked methadone ...........Gnarly.............................
Oh Mrs Connie, you my friend are a GEM!! Just love you. Yes they have celebrate recovery around here. Only thing is I think they are all at night!!! Frustrating!!! I have my pastor doing some praying bad research as to what I have available that may work for me. Please continued prayers for my success this time!! Once and for all.
Oh and I just went to store and bought camomile tea (k cups). Having a cup right now. Caffeine free. Just wanted something soothing. Hopefully this will do the trick. Waiting for my pastor to call me back. It's so embarrassing this whole process. Just need to get over myself and let it out!! Crazy bc I see people and hear people telling me their story of being an addict and getting free. And I praise them for their courage and honesty. I truly wish I could be so transparent with everyone. I'm not quote to that point yet. But getting there slowly.
Hi Hun..Geez I wonder who named you baby! Lmao! Girl we still love you and none of us are perfect either. If they think they are then let them throw that first stone..Right? OK Girl YOU know alot about this disease because I know you have read this in a more scientific way. I know you are a Christian and a girl with a good heart..SO the 2 things you did not follow is NOT going to those meetings yet..AND we know it is SO hard to be around the same med we came off of or any med! Please Girl this time just do what YOU have to DO! Not for anybody other then YOU. I live in a small town and many there are professionals with some great careers..What is said there is to stay there..Do not fear the worse like this will ruin your Reputation around your town..Heck we could be 6 feet under from a over dose..I would not like any body to talk over my grave and say I passed do to drugs. It is better to get SUPPORT and that is what you are lacking BIG time. I also think at such a low dose that your Anxiety or some is coming from the fact you are scared of what may be ahead if you do not get this right this time. I care about you and I am here for you. I want to see you make it and start working it. OK! Now lets get out to them Meetings this time. It takes a very long time for all of this to balance out Physically, Mentally and Spiritually. It took me over a Year to get there and even at 21months I am still GROWING! Wishing you the best!
Bless
Aww thank you so much pat:) that means ALOT. We can do this together!!!! We CAN do this!!!!! So you are liking counseling??
Oh dear one....you will NEVER lose our support. I know you were anxious about posting.....SO PROUD of YOU for following thru. Sometimes in life, we just have to "do it afraid"....ya know? And when we do....the blessings flow into us.
This statement of yours shows HUMONGOUS progress:
"I know I need more help than what I've been doing. I've been bucking the system for too long on getting help and telling my secret."
It would be horrendously difficult for me to get and stay clean if my hubby was using my DOC and didn't want me to get the help I needed because it will "expose" that secret to your community. But sometimes we have to do what is best for US....in spite of the lack of support from those so close to us. Are there any Celebrate Recovery groups in your area? Any support groups in any of your churches there?
God will make a way...when there seems to be no way. (Do you know that song?) "Doing it afraid" is one of the hardest things to do....but the flood of contentment, relief and joy is beyond our wildest imaginings when we DO.
Congrats on realizing you can't resist help and keep your addiction a secret any longer!! That's HUGE babe!!!
Holding you close....keep talking to us. It CAN be different this time~