I have abused prescription amphetamines (adderall) for several years. Usually daily usage totaled 80-150 mgs, though some days had less, and there have been breaks from that, some up to 6 months, and some just two weeks between prescriptions. I have decided to attempt stopping completely and permanently, because this drug does not get me anywhere and seriously messes up my life (makes me make bad choices, alienate people, spend wrecklessly, etc).
I have read that there is permanent brain damage and some other permanent health problems (cardiac problems), and I find this quite disturbing... I want to feel like there is a reward in quitting (in healing my brain, etc).
Can I expect my brain to repair itself, or am I just going to feel unproductive and depressed forever? I mean, realistically, can I ever expect to have any kind of success in life?
Also, about the heart stuff, I had a "full workup" of cardiac tests, (several EKGs, an echocardiogram, saw a cardiologist) in 2008 (which was after some of the abuse, but before much of it)... should I see one again, or would cardiac problems from amphetamine abuse present itself with symptoms?