Starting to withdraw from 100mg hydro a day

[Chrs32]

I'm a newbie to the whole forum thing so please bear with me :) I've been addicted to prescription pain pills for about 3 years now it started with 3-4 lortab 10's a day, a half at a time, and now I'm up to taking 8 at a time and that's just for maintenance And then 2 at bedtime just to keep from waking up in withdrawal. I've made it 14 days one time but the anxiety got the best of me and I started using again. Well today is hell all I've had is some gunk left over from a CWE I did the other day it was horrible and probably more Tylenol than anything. Anyways it all started when I got divorced about 3 years ago it sent me reeling because it seemed to come out of nowhere, she just told me one morning that she didn't think this was gonna work anymore and later I found out that she had met one of her old boyfriends on myspace and decided to throw away the 8 years we had together and it almost killed me I had taken hydros/Oxys a few times in the past and I developed this "screw it" attitude which now I know was stupid because now I have a new girl and a baby girl on the way and I have to stop this madness. I have so much to live for but the pills have taken over me and now I don't remember myself before the pills so I don't even know what I'm working toward. I know my habit isn't as bad as some I've seen on here but any support would be sincerely appreciated

[Chrs32]

Thanks for the suggestions I have looked up the Thomas recipie and I actually have most of the basics I'm just waiting this stuff out it ***** time just seems to stop I tried to do a little cleaning to try and occupy myself I can only do it in small spurts cuz it seems I get winded easy then I go sit on the couch and try to watch tv but my eyes keep wandering back to the clock thinking ok almost 24 hours but I know I have at least 72 hrs of this crap and it starts getting better day by day but god it seems like such a long time away but at the same time my girls due date is in November and that seems so close haha

[Chrs32]

Well I had to take a half of one of my xanax hopefully it will help me calm down I've had 2 panic attacks so far and I know it's just the beginning hopefully I can get some sleep

[FassFeat]

You got this buddy. A good positive attitude will help you more than anything. You must cut all ties with any suppliers or it will sneak up on you when you think you have control. Going forward,  just worry about today. You have to take care of you right now so that you can be better for those that love and depend on you. Keep it up, the worst will be over in a few days. Then you can put together a plan for the longterm. I am rooting for you. Congrats on a new life. You can do it.

[Chrs32]

Day 2 I can't even get out of bed I told my girl i have a stomach bug and got her to bring me the trash can which is gross but it's better than hitting the floor I guess. The crappy thing is my dealer called this morning and I told him I was stopping and that I felt like crap and he actually got mad and said that he could front me some til payday which made the mental part that much harder but I told him no and that I couldn't mess with him anymore. So hopefully he will leave me alone and I can get through this day at 6pm it will be 48 hrs since I've taken anything

[Luckytwice]

48 hours is doing good. About 1/2 to 2/3 of the way through the worst of it. Morning should be a better day

[Chrs32]

Well I wish I could say day 3 is better but it's gotten worse exponentially I can't keep anything down except Gatorade and I'm starting to rethink this whole cold turkey route but Im just trying to keep telling myself if you go back now the last 2 f'n days of crap was all for nothing and that I'm almost to the end. I think I've developed a respiratory infection cuz when I sleep (not much) I guess my sinuses drain into my lungs I know that's gross but anyway is it normal to be running a small fever? I've only been up to 99.9 but I didn't think fever was a withdrawal symptom and if not then I do have a freakin respriatory infection which with my luck will turn into bronchitis since I'm a smoker I want some pills so bad just to take 100mg and melt into the couch but I know if I did I would regret it....blah hopefully tomorrow will be the turning point that's all I can hope for...