Today is Day 4, but I have a true test coming over Christmas break

[Orion5611]

I was very addicted to Lortabs and was taking over 200 mg a day for almost 10 years. Well today is day 4 and I'm feeling MUCH better than the last 3 days!! I'm finally past the hard part. BUT, when I go back home for Christmas, I have friends and family who take Lortabs (and are addicted) and everyday I've been thinking about getting "just two pills" from someone. But I know that's what made me relapse the last 3 times I quit . . so please, someone knock some sense into me!! I know I shouldn't take anymore, but it's the lie "Just 2 won't hurt."

Any advice on what I can do to stay strong?

[desperatetostop]

can you 'take us with you'? do you have internet at the family's house over the holidays?

I dont' have many words of wisdom for you right now...I just hope and pray that you will stay strong...either way, we're all here for you!

(((hugs)))

[Orion5611]

Thank you Gizzy!! SO MANY TIMES, I have fallen right into that trap!! You'd think I would know better by now, which I do! But the craving will always be there, and it is strong. I've relapsed sooo many times thinking I can just take a couple, or that I can control it!! But you're right, when I start taking them again I just fall deeper and deeper and I take more and more!

But what is different this time is this website! I didn't have any support last time, so for that, I am thankful! It really helps to talk to people who understand what I'm going through!!
Thanks Gizzy.

[gizzy32]

I think most of us here have said that, just a couple pills or just a couple lines won't hurt. I repeated that cycle for years thinking after a few days clean i had control but,  the fact is, every relapse became so much tougher to get back up and I fell deeper into addiction. I know you know you can't just take 2, but your addiction will fight you and tell you it's ok, it's not ok.

Your doing so good this time and reaching out for help and support which is so important, dont' set yourself up for a relapse. Can you talk to your family, so that pills are not around, that is an enormous trigger. Keep posting and keep reading, there is a lot of support here. Congrats on 4 days now.