Hey, I don't think it was TMI and besides that's why we use an alias. Please don't be mortified or stop posting, I have spilled my guts in this forum so many times and never had a problem, I really hope you don't stop posting because I have really enjoyed your posts.
Hey every one great job on all youre doing. Sorry to hijack the train but I wanted to ask the MH censor to delete my post on this thread from yesterday. I am embarrassed well mortified this was TMI. I don't think I'm well enough to be posting here anymore. Going to take a break. Please delete all.
Why put yourself in that position, I have a friend in recovery here in jax who keeps a bottle so she can show shes overcome it and good for her if shes THAT strong, I just PRAY GOD stays on her side because I feel thats playing with FIRE!!!
I feel like we should stay away from people places and THINGS!!!
Pat, please write that "break up" letter, it does help. You have been battling this for so long, its really time Pat, to have the life you so deserve. I am going to share with you the letter i wrote over a year ago, not much to it, but after i just read it again, it is powerful.....
My break up letter to my addiction
Listen you stupid, careless, inconsiderate addiction I'm on to you now. You see I'm a good person, yes I've made mistakes but as they say I'm human and god died on the cross for my sins, my family, I love them more than anything, I enjoy their love, smiles, I love having a beautiful group of people share my life, all the beautiful things in life places we've been and yet to see. I don't deserve to shake, sweat and feel insecure I spent so much of my life feeling that already I've paid my dues where pain is concerned and I deserve to have the next half of my life off that kind of pain, my suffer/pain bank is full. I don't love you although in the beginning I fooled myself I did , I don't even like you your a insidious, evil, cruel entity in my life and quite frankly your ugly, you do nothing nice for people except take advantage and consume people your so needy,,, I have to let you go because there is another way to live one where I forgive myself for any bad choices I made in my past including dealing with you. I know you'll come back
In a few weeks and beg me to be with you but I'm stronger, wiser than you and I'm letting you know FU CK off, you can't have me anymore I need me. Take care and drop dead.
I am just really tired of failing. They get in my head so bad and I am romancing them for sure. I may just work on that goodbye letter, I need to say goodbye to a lot of things. Sigh.
Absolutely wonderful post! I am making sure the devil takes his bags.