Well going on day 11 was busy weekend witch was good the cravings are insane my additive mind is a creative prick haha but so far able to ignore it went to my first meeting was good I plan plan plan
Going to my first meeting tonight ..I will try those shakes now I'm taking multi and b12 helps allot. Well it's been7 long days since my last dose cravings hit hard today but I'm fighting them minute by minute . I'm having the hardest time in the morning I'm waking up and my head is so clear and I'm bouncing off the walls it's amazing after ask those years waking up in a fog. It's very scary learning the real me after so many drugged up years !!
Hi just wanted to drop in and see how your doing?? also did your get to a meeting yet?? anyway your doing great for 1 week keep posting for support you may want to get on the Whey protein shakes it is only 15 bucks for a 2lb can at walmart it gives your brain the amino acids and the raw protein for energy I will check back with you later on.......
..............................................Gnarly...................................
Yeah your right I really enjoy driving around with my dog and convertible down jamming the radio does help haha it's been years. I do like all the senses that I'm regaining except smell sometimes it's overwhelming haha . Well tomorrow at 330 will be my one week since last dose been very very long week .. thankfully for everyone here I would of never made it
Just wanted to chime in. Great job on day 6! U have the right attitude n determination which is awesome. Stay the course. I'm on day 33 from last dose so I can assure, it will get better n better.
U mentioned ur 50. I'm 53 n one of the things I do every day is listen to my old rock bands. Gets me pumped... Lol. Great way to get those endorphins flowing. I also started exercising. Not much but every little bit helps. U r doing great! Keep going!
Well morning day6 feels like a year already haha I got off easy with wd I feel good!!up early full of energy bouncing off the walls . But oh yes cravings come and go ! Was out at 7am putting in resumes . Sleep has been better only waking up couple times a night. My pain is there but nothing can't handle thanks all for your support!!!
Pat
Yes your right trying to piece life together is frightening and that's what caused my relapse before I was some what prepared this time but doesn't make it to much easier but still clean just started day six!!!
Pact ... Glad things are looking so good for you! Use that as your motivation to keep going and to not give up. I was the same way you were couldn't function if I didn't have it... And I spent my whole day worrying and trying to figure out If I was gonna get my fix for day.. It's scary when you start to come out of the fog and look at how your life slowly fell apart ... And here you are stuck trying to figure out where to begin to try to piece if back together ... You have a beautiful life in front of you ... Don't forget that.
Ashleigh
Congrats on your clean time. Get yourself busy, old hobbies,new hobbies, meetings, do some cleaning, get job hunting, go to church, exercise,
Volunteer.
Your mind and body need to stay busy. Idle time is the devil's workshop.
Keep moving forward.
Do a new thing this time to help prevent relapse.
Keep the faith.
Debbie
Thank you well one more night down sleep is fairly good it's amazing it's is the morning waking with a clear head not searching for my pill bottle...trying to plan my whole day. When using it would take me couple hours before even could function.. things are looking up
Keep up the fight! You've come along way! There are mountains to come before you, stick to the plan, you CAN DO THIS! Keep posting.
Well on day 5 yeah! This is part I hate I'm sitting here going crazy when I've seen What the pills have done . I feel lost no job no interests left just think things to keep my mind busy. It's very overwhelming this is where I have failed before
Had my first test today when old co-worker called out of no where haven't talked in very long time but we shared addiction he was always good for some pills but I never asked but it did set off cravings under control now
Well Had pretty good night getting 3 hours sleep at time but slept most the night . Body is achey but liveable. Yesterday was good got out of the house went for a ride then took my dog for a walk was whipped by 6 so didn't make it to the na meeting I want to check out. They have them every night I'm going tonight. This morning feeling pretty alive day 5 starts at 330 haha . Going to get out today to I don't like sitting idle to much time to think it's dangerous.. seeing how this addiction cost me my job I have to much time on mutt hands. Well anyhow I'm feeling better then I should still today what's different this time then others my head is much clearer .. thanks all for your help taking day by day now think the worst of wd it's over but I'm no dummy this time I'm well aware on the demons ahead haha
Yes your words are so true it's such a waste of life and money it just eats you like acid until everything's gone it happens so slow by time you realize what it's done it's overwhelming..
Pat
Hey there. It's great to hear you are feeling better on day 4. It does come and go. So don't get upset if your body all of a sudden decides it wants to give you a taste of day 2 or 3 again. For the most part, once you cross that first week, it gets so much better every day after. You have made the BEST decision of your life. These stupid pills are the crutch we use to "deal" with everything going on in our lives. I'm on day 43 and I can't believe I let myself "check out" of life for so long. EVERYTHING is SO much better now without the narcotics...Things taste better, thoughts are clearer, sex is WAY better, happy thoughts, no more lies or sneaking, more money in my pocket, and so much more. When we place ourselves in that sluggish existence nothing seems to make us happy. It's a wonderful feeling now to finally be FREE. This forum was the key ingredient that I needed to kick this thing. Just reading all of these posts and seeing that so many are going through the same feelings and fears that I was really made me determined to change this hell that I made for myself. Everyone here is so loving and they help without judgment. We share our experiences and advice so that others may be free too. In a way, it a therapeutic outlet to keep us on track. Keep posting and reading. You are doing great.
Ok I'm little worried I'm almost on day 4 I feel better then I should heads a little cloudy that's it little pain not even much craving hope this sign of days to come!
Hi all thanks for the support well finally got little sleep feel half human this morning over half way threw day 3 . Well gnarly I plan to give na a try I'm done thinking I'm strong I can beat this alone I know better .. this time is different in some ways I'm totally tired of pills running my life and ruining it
Pat
Hi been following your post and where glade your here my question is what are you going to do different this time around so you never have to go threw this again...???? for a old dope fiend like me it takes 4 N/A meetings a week but when I was using it was 7 days a week this program will work for you if your honest about it please check it out...................................Gnarly...........................................
i have been there , can totally relate, it was that feeling and the horrid feeling and legs kicking that i really had a hard time dealing with.
now 2 and a half years from feeling like that i can say i am so glad i went through it , because it helps me to remember how i never want to feel that way again.
You can do this! people get through this and go on to freedom from opiates alot! it takes persistence and determination to get through acute w/d, it will be over , it cannot last forever , (that is what i focused on) i just let go and time healed that part. once you get through that then there is another part , but one step at a time, its easier to not have to much to dwell on right now.
hang in there and keep posting.
Know what I dislike the most is I can never get comfortable I sit I lay I can get comfortable I lay face down on floor haha crazy
Well into day three so far so good well besides the extreme exhaustion and running to bathroom foggy head I'm ok no cravings yet . I'm going to check out na tomorrow if my body permits . Thanks all I need the kind words
Hey Pat I hope you are doing ok. You do sound like you really want it and that sure helps. Here to support you, keep up the good work ...
Well I'm 2 hours away from starting day 3 I have normal effect except no rls . I got so tired of being sick once or twice a week I can not control myself with pills I have them I take them my addictive mind don't let me taper haha hope your doing well