can anybody help me?

[mushaaka]

i`m so messed up. i`m using brown since i was 16. and now i just want to die

[Life360_Dave]

Keep steping in the direction you are going. Its great your off the brown. See, you are helping youself. first  you posted and second your off brown. Just take the steps one by one. Keep posting as many here have been there and some still are.
God is Love!

[mushaaka]

thank u so much. actually i posted my call for help being sure nobody would answer it. i`m amazed how many people had written to me. thank u. i just find this website by chance. i was looking for people who have problem with methadone `cause after months of using it and H at the same time finally( it took me about 2 years) i`m swallowing pills only, but i don think it`s better (i`m buying it from the street- i`m not on the program because i`m polish girl in holland and i don`t have an insurance), my message was so short because i was certain i will not get any answer.
so thank u... all of u
[and sorry for my English]
once again: thank u

[akitagurl12]

please don't die before you get the chance to really live. This world needs you.  Please remember that you are here because of a reason.  I don't know what your reason is, but I can assure you it isn't to just be a slave to a chemical.  You deserve better.  Just make a few decisions today to get on the path back to your true self and everything else will start to fall in place.  You won't be alone. A little reaching out for help can go a long way.

[dominosarah]

Thank you lesa~

[10356]

Hi Musshaka.. Welcome to the forum.. I'm glad you found us I can hear the suffering in your words.. all it takes is for you to make a decision. although you do not feel stronger then the H you are. It has been a long time that you have done anything for yourself personally Your true self Your Spirit.. you are still in there and you are worth saving.. just make the decision.. sure the first 5 days s*uck. but that is all it takes is 5 days that is it then you are physically free.. 5 days compered to what Over half your life of slaving for Heroin.. of feeding the addiction.. You feel alone I'm sure but your not. You have this whole forum to support you thru this battle. we have suggestions on how to make it bearable.. i know when I was a active junkie, money I never had I fed it all to the drug that tried to kill me.. get angry get p*issed.. take your life back ok. You Deserve to live a Good Healthy life.. We all do.. Hope to see you back and reaching out for support for then.. Yes we can help you.. I wish you the very best on your journey to Freedom.. lesa

[GarbageAddict360]

It saddens me that you feel that you want to die.  NOTHING is worth losing your life over.  I can tell you first hand that when you take your own life you affect hundreds of people.  My girlfriend committed suicide and I hurt every day because of it. Posting here is your first step. Have you considering going into a Rehab?  NA meetings can also give you some insight and much needed support.  Do you have family that is there for you? I know how hard it is to quit Heroin, but you can do it.  I gave it up and I am still here to tell the tale.  Withdrawal is a *itch, but totally doable.  You have to want it bad enough though.  Keep your head up and keep posting, we are all here for you.