day 2 no oxycontin

[Cassie415]

After a 2 week relapse i have stopped again. Today is the second day without it and i am`pretty sick and feel horrible. I am in mexico for a vacation which is helping me not to get it because there is no way i can get it here. but i am really sick and have no energy to even move. my dad and his gf want to go out every night and drink and all that mexico type stuff and i am just dying. I was snorting about 200mg of oxycontin before i stopped so i no this detox wont be easy but I will have 5 days clean by the time i get home so i am hoping thats enough to just stay away and not get any more. I am very weak and sick right now and I just keep thinking about how nice a line of oxycontin would make me feel. anywys i am going to try really hard to stay sober this time. just wanted to post an update, thanks everyone for all the help.

[Cassie415]

everyone on here says i need to tell them, but is there any other options? i rly cant imagine telling them. and i know that i need to get off this roller coaster, but, and i am being completely honest, at this point i feel like if i went home i wud just get more immediatly. i am sry cuz i constantly disappoint evryone on this website and all of my friends too, but i am having the hardest time trying to stop and i am too stubborn to do anything about it or tell my parents. when i was doing other drugs i was fine and i cud just stop whenever, but this stipid drug has just gotten some kind of hold on me and i am just stuck using. i used to do it for fun, and now i have to do it each morning when i wake up and continue doing it all day. the last two weeks i was doing it, i threw up every day and i couldnt even keep my eyes open all day like when i was driving, or working at my summer camp i was struggling to even keep my eyes open, yet i still wanted more. and i still do. i just feel trapped in this right now.

[corey411]

Cassie hon, You know I'm just going to say the same thing. You gotta tell your parents. This will save your life. Going home with 5 days clean from Mexico will not change anything. You are going to use again. Deep down you must know that your parents will be there for you.Did you start using when they divorced? I think you are using to cover up pain right now. This will change if you don't intervine on it now. You will begin using to make it through each and every thing in each and every day. You will miss out on all of the things that you need to experience and learn to transition from a child to an adult. This is a very critical time in your life and development. You need to give your parents the chance to help you. Please think deeply about this.

[gizzy32]

Cassie, can you see how hard this is getting for you now? You have told me in the past, that's it tough to quit since you have not bottomed out yet. What will it take for you to see the light and get some help and tell your family? Do you really want to live this way, because it will keep getting worse and worse. I hate to see anyone addicted, but someone so young like yourself and not realizing what is awaiting for you if you don't stop. You will start to lose everything, including your health and maybe life if u keep snorting this ****. Please get some help and for the 50th time, tell your family regardless what you think of them, it may save you. I am not preaching, i drank recently and messed up too with alcohol, so I am not judging. We are addicts and hardest on ourselves, but we should be because we have the CHOICE to get back up and work at our sobriety and make those changes necessary. Please make the right choices hun, there is a wonderful life waiting for you. Stay strong and come up with a better plan this time. Congrats on 2 days clean:)

[IBKleen]

Cassie,

You have GOT to get off this roller coaster. You are just a baby and a whole lot of us old junkies don't make it my age.

You have so much to look forward to in life. Please, please talk with your dad. Get honest and let him help you.