freakin out here. red flagged

[MsSally]

As I've read thru some posts on the topic. I couldn't help feel there wasn't a lotta cold honesty. If you want help. Be honest. Here I go.

First my question. How long before I'm hauled away? Yes I'm that scared.

Been fighting this roller coaster longer than I can remember. As I've shared. I went CT last weekend. Broke down Tues. Got a new script from my pain management Dr. This one consisted of half the normal fill plus methadone.  Used a few norcos to keep wd's away. Its been great. I'm functioning and breaking this nasty demon. Haven't touched methadone. First pharmacy didn't have norco. Next pharmacy won't fill cuz I've been listed or flagged on some system here in Cali. Panic. I don't have ins. So went to ma and pop pharmacy that knows me and my Dr well. Use to be cheapest. Always went. Then found a CVS that was half the price. Another CVS was double. Anyhow. Get it filled but in panic mode now. Why? Well. Like most.  Middle class employed mom in pain. Here's the deal. Dr shopping. Yes I have a past this last year. When that pharmacist read off all drs that wrote me a script this year I was shocked. 2 pages she had. First. Half the names were PA's in my spinal care center. High turn around. That I'm not worried about. What scares me are the others. Er visits. We've all been there. A few dentists. That was legit I needed antibiotics but wasn't gonna turn down the pain meds. Most terrifying. My former employer. Yup I work in the medical field. Small office. Paper charts. My Co worker called in a script. A few others signed the refill faxes for me. This stopped almost a year ago. Fear is. I left that job on bad terms. Unrelated. But the Dr blames me for almost loosing her practice. After I left due to verbal and emotional abuse. The other 2 employees left. She went to er for chest pain. Lost pts. Cuz she didn't know how to run her office.  Now flash forward 10would months. I'm flagged in some Cali drug system. If they contact my former employer. As a prescribing Dr. She will know. I never personally picked up any of the scripts. Nor sign them. Maybe 1.

What's the process after being in this system? Just ***** cuz I'm finally getting the old me back. Wrestled all morning with my bf. Went out to lunch. Ran errands. Normally a weekend was me laying on the couch for 2you days while my bf did everything. Then dreading work come Monday. These lil yellow pills that once gave energy. Now sucked all life from me. Here I am finally feeling normal and my life may be taken away.

[ricart70]

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[Kabrina_Bainter]

I know your feeling all too well I have been addicted to Norco 10's for going on 16 years since I was 17 now I am 33 I have done everything under the sun to get these pills, whether it be altering prescriptions, using different names to obtain the pills with a Dr. I have never seen before nor does the person whose name I have used.. I know it is wrong but yet I still did it!! I also Dr. Shopped as well and I have been red flagged. I, myself have been good I have not had any norco in almost 3 months under MY NAME. But under someone else's name I have had norco. I have since stopped this and I am still struggling. But the feeling of being hauled away is always there. I am a true addict and I know what I need to do to stop but I am scared to DEATH of being sober cause those little yellow pills DO make you feel untouchable and they DO ALSO suck the life and energy out of you as well I just hope that I can get the old me back. I hope this helps you McSally and everyone else. I also need advice too I have noone to confide in at all I am struggling with this all by myself...

[Andie_girl]

I just got flagged I have ms and live in Texas getting norco from 2 different docs! I'm in a lot of pain! Am I gonn go to jail? In so freaked out!

[pray4me121]

i have been taking norco for about 2 years now. At the beginning i would take them to relax. it started with around two a day. i have never told anyone this but i never had a prescription. i used to get them from my mother. When she wouldnt give them to me or i wanted more, I would steal them from her. She would start to notice so I would get them from my step father as I found out he was taking them also. I have never really taken drugs but these really caught me off guard. I climbed to roughly 10 or 15 in a day or two. It would give me energy and keep my mind off of the stressful things unaware it actually took my mind off of everything. I took a stand about five months ago and took a "vacation" to a hotel with my ex husband who called one day and i was honest with him and he helped me detox. i had a horrible time sleeping, no energy, I puked sweated, my body jerked all night long with full kicks by the restless legs. diarhea but i did it and was so proud of myself. needless to say it didnt last long, a week or so, but I started again! i have lost everything. i have 3 kids that see mommy isnt the same mommy, i have mood swings and I just need 2 or three to function for the day, im only taking that much now because i cant get any more, I would quit if I had the time but with 3 kids its hard. I cry about it daily, i want to qit, its a big secret between me and my mother, step father and aunt because i found out she also takes them. im pissed I ever did it in the first place. I know what im going to go through again when I detox but im actually scared to go through the WD again. If I told you what ive been through with these stupid pills you wouldnt believe me. This is the first time ive read posts and different stories about what others have been though, i will start tomorrow, i have no choice. I need to get back to me. my kids need me more than ever. please pray i can do this. exercise gatorade.. im ready!.. or is it going to be just another day to figure out where my next two pills are going to come from. i am so afraid of going through WD again...

[Christina99]

Our addiction takes us to dark places! I live in a small-ish canadian town and about 5 years ago had 2 docs in the go. ( never admitted this to anyone). 1 was giving T4's and the other percs, I did this for about 6m! Then of course I stuck with perc doc! The panic during that time was so intense!!! I know State laws are harsher that Canada but you're on the right road now and that has to count for something if this ends up in the courts hand. I'm sure even there they want to help people, not throw them away! I'm with everybody else... Seek legal advice!!! Then u know and can deal from there! I'm sorry you have this to deal with too, just take it 1 baby step at a time!!! You should be proud of yourself for wanting sobriety and taking the steps to get there!

[10356]

Thank you I do feel better for her :) but that does not take away the refills that were not authorized by her Dr. and being red flagged and trying to get opiates filled may have been the driving nail. I feel for Ms Sally and would like nothing more then for her to get the help she needs and deserves to live the life she so wants. The steps I have outlined are a beginning to her taking some control back of the situation.. Thank you Theaddict I appreciate it..