relapse.....i do not want to//but i want to???

[worried878]

I was laid off from my job on Tuesday...times r tough....plus my guy is moving and decided he is getting back together with his x/i think...he wont break up but he is staying over there....so to me it is a done deal..he is a puss and wont do the dirty work of saying it is over//so i had to...and i didnt need the stress this week...she found out we were planning to marry next yr and things got intense//she had him arrested for trespassing and he caved///loves the 9 yr old//i am done///wont go there right now..but he is a weak person....a very bad week in general for me..instead of going to my doc///i turned to drinking....gone to meetings every night...cant go down!  gonna see a counseler too..i need to talk..i am gonna explode if i do not!

I lost my job that i had for 9 yrs...I lost him///and i loved him but now i dont know why I did/do/but am letting go....i always come out on my feet/im down but trying hard not to relapse...i havent been posting cos i havent been out of my bed much at all this week til yesterday for a gym trip and today to lay on the beach...did me good tho...and is the reason i am up at this hour//i get depressed and go to bed at 8 pm!   Losses all at once can test us....i love this forum ///everyone is so supportive....i will be ok...but relapse is in my mind cos i am weak/needy....thanks for letting me share

[sickofpills]

Hey there!  I am sorry you are going through so much right now!  But PLEASE hang in there!  You were one of the many people that gave me hope and support during my 1st few weeks.  You still do!  Don't let these setbacks mess up all you have done!  I'm prayin for ya!  Much love!

[troubleinohio]

Worried-- wow you sure have received an outpouring of support, love and advice here! See how many people's lives you have touched and helped? Now its our turn to support and help you in your time of need. I cant add much to what has already been posted, everyone has pretty much said it all (or at least my sleepy brain can think to add right now as its pretty early still and I need more coffee lol)  but you know what i mean. You are a very special person and have helped SO many people here. I am sorry you are going through all this BS right now, you surely dont deserve it. I hope that you can pull through it unscathed from pills and alcohol. Please hang in there, we got your back (and Id hate to see you shot from IBK or Sara, lol)

[Florida_Guy737]

Life will beat you down if you let it; well not so much life but the circumstances thrown at you.  A few things and I'm not stating this to purely make you feel good but trying to give you some perspective:

1. Job - Healthcare is still a strong field, particularly in the healthcare informatics field, population health, EMR/PHR, etc.  Home healthcare is strong, eg Hospice, virtual in home care organization, etc.
2. Relationship - Better to find out now that you had a weak parter than to invest a few years and find out later.  I find it difficult to coddle a weak backboned individual; it is what it is...get on with it.
3. Using - nothing really to say here because I know, you know, that meds are not the answer.  Remember your taper schedule and the apprehension about stopping completely?  

When the mortgage debacle ensued, my high level position in an investment firm was in jeopardy.  My life was also spinning out of control with stress and a few other things...taking a less stressful job has done wonders, and I mean wonders, for my psych.  I'm probably healthier now than I have been in 20 years.

Stay healthy now; work out as much as you can (become a gym rat if you have too); swim, bike, weights, diet, etc.  Communicate with your network for available jobs.  Florida has a 12 month unemployment benefit; not sure what your State has.  Whatever you do, please stay away from the meds...this is a road towards more heartache.

Take Care,

Guy

[candothis247]

Hey Girrrrrrl:
I’m so sorry this is happening to you. Yes life can throw some big ol’ curve balls our way and god can really test us at times.
1st of all, that dude sounds major coward, he doesn’t deserve such a nice person like yourself.  Yea, several losses at one time can make you feel really BAD! So many people have lost their jobs at this point, at least you are not alone there. Well I know that doesn’t help, but I wouldn’t take it personally, I have so many friends who have lost their jobs. It’s crazy.
But look here how many people care about you. I do and I don’t even know you.  You have posted so many helpful, knowledgeable & intelligent posts here. I love the polls you put together. I don’t deal with loss very well at all. Time heals all wounds.  I hope you can stay strong.  You have responded to my several of posts when I needed support, they have always been helpful and I really appreciate that and knowing you on this forum. Hang in there!
Penny

[Ella789]

Hey !!  Worried,   see how many people care abt. you ?!!  I know it makes you feel good to know this.!!  Stress, heartbreak, unknown future,  these things would make alot of people cave.  Life is tough sometimes. :(  I feel for you and with all my heart, I hope that everything works out for you !!

Bigs Hugs to you From  Ella

[sinkorswimintoronto]

Touche...that said it all honey...

You have too much to offer to let a minor setback turn into a major disaster...turn to wherever you turn for strength, and if the lights are off..we are here for you