scared to death...

[mommy2be25]

I'm so scared right now... I've messed up really bad! I've called in my own scripts and this time they cancelled it and didn't fill it. I know they will be calling the Dr tomorrow and it will all be over! What will happen to me? What might they do? I'm the mother of a 17month old precious baby boy and he deserves so much more than this! I feel like if I just end it all then it will save him and my family a lot of trauma!

[perch101]

I also have been arrested for fraudently altering a prescription (I added Rx to a script for an addictive painkiller)
I had done it a couple of times with no problems then got caught. God I was so mortified!
I live in Australia, but I think our laws are very similar.... The pharmacy told me that they had to notify the police - she said if she didn't report it she could lose her licence to be a pharmacist. Im thinking unfortunately it would be the same in the US -  the pharmacy are actually duty bound to call the cops I think. After calling them she told me I had 24 hours to voluntarily present myself to the police station to be formally arrested or they would come to my house and arrest me in front of my family. Of course I handed myself in to avoid that.
What badshadow said is 100% correct - you have to show that you want help to kick your addiction and you are taking active steps to do this.
I was arrested for 'fraud' and had to go to court. It helped so much that it was a first offence. I was told by legal aid that to avoid getting a criminal record I had to show them I was serious about getting help. I went to inpatient rehab - regually attended AA/NA. I got letters from my therapist at rehab stating my dedication to getting clean and this helped me to get a 'diversion' - (don't know if they call it that in US but they would have an eqivelancy) which meant no criminal record, jail time, not even a fine. I just had to write an apology to the doctor whos script I altered and the pharmacy, and supply copies to the court, and I got a 3 month good behavior bond.
If you show them the same steps I did you may get the same! I hope you do, and I hope your husband can find it in his heart to understand and support you.
Good luck, let us know what happens.

[Cris718]

I swear my heart goes out to you.  I just got busted by the pharmacy, my husband and my doctors's offcie refilling my husbands script of Lortab.   While yes, I was SCARED to death, but I went to the doctor that day, admitted what I had done, and honestly everything in my head was much worse than it was. Forgive me when i say this, but I hope it scares you enough to get clean.  I believe that's what many of us need to get real about our problems in taking these things.

Just keep us up to date on what's going on.  keep the faith girl.....please....there is hope.  I thought 2 days agao I would be in a TON of trouble, but the doctor gave med some meds to help me get through withdrawls.  Today is my second day clean.  I even got up and got back to walking this morning!!  :)   Believe me.....there is ahope...and YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!  Take it one day at a time.  You really need to tell your husband, if he loves you, he'll see you through this.  Yes, he may get mad and upset, but allow him to feel also.  Focus on at least your being honest.  I can't tell you how good it feels to actually come out....and get some help.  My best to you dear and you beautiful son.  Prayers.....

[buggie1978]

Hello! Ok,take a deep breath....I know this is probably the worst thing that could happen to you at this point....but it may be the best thing. I know it is hard to think that way at this point...but trust me on this!
First let me tell you something...you have way to much to loose by taking your own life...and way toooooo... many people will be affected by it! You have a precious baby boy that's life is in your hands,he needs you! Your husband,son,family,friends,etc..will all be affected by this and taking your life is not the answer....HELP is! You need to call and talk to someone right now! Google "Narcotic Crisis Hotlines" and there should be several numbers that you can call to have someone direct you to getting help.
Worrying about you right now is "alllll.." that matters! Do you have a close friend that you can call right now? Or family member(Sister,brother?)
About the RX.... Do not call the Doctor or pharmacy. Just let what happens,happen. Trust me,the more said may hurt you in the long run. Nothing is going to happen overnight with that,so while you are at home,start getting the help you need now,before anything happens with that! Showing that you are getting help is going to only help you and make everything a whole lot easier...trust me! NA is a very,very great program...google NA Locater" and it should guide you to meetings in your area. If you can get to a meeting in the morning...DO IT! Are you starting to taper off of your meds,or have you started withdraw already? What,and how much were or are you taking?

[badshadow]

I have been arrested for Forging Prescriptions.  I had to come clean to my Husband, and get an attorney.  If they do arrest you, and you don't have the money for an attorny, you will be appointed an Public Defender.

If this is your first Offense, most likely you will be Released on what's called your "OR," or "Own Recognizance," without having to pay bail.  If not, they will keep you in the County or Local Jail, unti the Judge sets your Bail.

I don't know where you live, but if there is any kind of Program you can get into, do it NOW or TOMORROW, before your actually arrested.  If there is no Program, start going to NA or AA Meetings and have a Notepage Paper that can be signed and dated.  Go to as many meetings a Day and get your Paper Signed as you can.

This will show the Judge "Good Faith" and that you do want to get help.

Talk to your Husband AND the DR.  Don't wait for them to come to you.  The Dr. may be willing to let go the charges, but the Pharmacy may not.

This is a Felony, but 99.9% if this is your first Offense it will be knocked down to a Misdeameanor.

If you live somewhere that has Prop 36, the Judge will most likely order you into Treatment.  You will probably also have to be on Probation, and go for Urine Screens.  You may have to spend a little time in Jail, but it will give you the opportunity to get clean and get your life back.

Most Jails and Institutions have NA and AA meetings.

You have a hard row to hoe in front of you, but for me getting arrested was one of the best things that could have happened to me.  It really woke me up to what I was doing, that I could lose my daughter and have to spend time in Jail or Prison.

Many people have done what you have done and are in Jail and Prison and have lost their Children.

That does not have to be "You."  You can turn this around, but doing the right thing.

I really do wish you all the best, and I hope through this you find Recovery.  If you do "Get Off," and don't get arrested consider yourself lucky and please get help.

[lmccoy]

If you look in the phone book or call information you should be able to get the number for a crisis hotline. They are trained and have all the local tel. # you should need to get some help. I got caught filling a couple of prescriptions just one day early and all involved were decent enough to just take the time to find out what was going on with me and resolve the problems I was having. I did take the initiative and call my Dr. office imediatly after the pharmacy told me they were not filling the script and knew it had been tampered with. I told them how sorry I was and that I understood that this would be the end of our Dr./patient relationship and that I appreciated the good care they had provided and was very sorry to have done what I did. I never talk about this to anyone because it is the lowest of low points for me but I want you to know I understand the fear of what will happen legally and the compounded scare of going into withdrawls on top of it. Less that two months ago a relative commited suicide over custody of her daughter and trust me when I tell you that is not the right choice. No matter how this plays out nobody will be able to be as hard on you as you are. I know it is overwhelming, but once you are in contact with some addiction councelors they will help you to understand how widespread addiction to pain meds is. This can be turned around and the worst that can happen will seem OK a year from now if you just do the right thing now. By the time your daughter is three you will be your new and improved self and she will not remember any of this. Just call the Crisis hotline and get some help. They might come and take you to a detox this evening, and even if that seems frightning just know that for a little while you will be better off turning this over to some professionals. Sending thoughts of strength and good will your way. Please make that call.

[Beccabeccalynn]

Have you ever been in trouble before?