scared to death...

[mommy2be25]

I'm so scared right now... I've messed up really bad! I've called in my own scripts and this time they cancelled it and didn't fill it. I know they will be calling the Dr tomorrow and it will all be over! What will happen to me? What might they do? I'm the mother of a 17month old precious baby boy and he deserves so much more than this! I feel like if I just end it all then it will save him and my family a lot of trauma!

[PromisedLand]

It sounds like you've done the right thing..having your husband and father to support you is the best place you can start...you can't do much better than that.  My brother recently went through something similar with my niece and he was there to support her all the way and she's coming out OK...

Good idea to get out for a while...

Jim

[tryntogetwell]

It sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. And your family sounds like they are a very loving family. It helps if you have alot of support. I am also very lucky to have a great husband! Take care and keep us posted. I think it will all work out for you.

[mommy2be25]

Im thinking if I get through today I will try to help my husband pack and go over the bills and everything he needs to know about over the weekend, then I will check myself into rehab monday morning.

[mommy2be25]

We are going to leave the house for the day... just to get away for a little while. My dad and my husband both know and seem to want to support me through this. I just hope all my family feels the same way. It feels better having my husband and dad to talk to though, thats for sure. Otherwise I would have already done something stupid. I'll be in touch....

[sway1]

you may be able to go to the E.R. and tell them that you are suicidal. with luck they could admit you and get the ball rolling on getting you clean as well as some counselling. then when the time comes for court you'll have some medical records to help explain and to show that you have taken the first step toward getting help. the show of good faith goes a long way with most judges. don't you dare harm yourself! you want your baby to be saying "why did my mommy leave me?"? NO! nobody wants that. praying for you, sway

[tryntogetwell]

Im glad you told your husband. That was one of the main things you were worried about. So now you just need to handle this with your family and keep posting because everyone on here knows how you feel. We will all be here for you girl!