whos out there w/ding with me?

[beatbutnotbroken]

8 days clean off of methadone 105mg tapered down to 45mg...went thru the first 5days in a detox.(thats all they could hold me for) last 2 days they gave me 4 doses of subutex 4mg 4mg 2mg 2mg then said ur good to go RIIIGGHHT. the first day out i felt ok then the next morning I felt pretty good, and then it crept up on me like a assassin. first the anxiety and heart pounding then the aches of bones and joints. there was a point it was so bad i forced myself to sit still and accept the pain just kinda welcomed it in my body then my feet kinda just went numb with a vibrating sensation. lasted about 15mins then had to get up and walk around. and oh my the head games are worse than i ever thought its like my brain is so fing confused and i have no control over it, i get really angry sometimes like i wish this disease could manifest itself in a physical form so i can beat the **** out of it. but all in all im doing ok 8days in and running the road of recovery never to look back at the drugs chasing me. MH and the people here have givin me so much support and kindness it has really helped me a lot so i just wanted to try and give some back. keep posting for support. together we can beat this, KEEPING THE FAITH.......

[beatbutnotbroken]

Ty guys:-) I have been busting my ars every day and each dayis getting better I have lost 20lbs and starting to get ma energy back. Been pushing myself physically andd might have this beat before long. Only symptoms im having really are lack of sleep and attention span. I meet with my sponsor soon to start the steps and finally been able to let god take over. We are like a fragile glass jar and when his light enters our jaar we have to protect that jar so his light doesnt leave us. No worries anie, I pray for a speedy recovery for you...ty guys again another success story in the works. With a strong will to fight you can reclaim your life back and be FREE!! :-) KEEP THE FAITH

[VICourageous]

Way to GO!!!! Keep on Going..It only gets better & better as things will be laid right out in front of you..Blessing will come rolling in too. Keep up the Faith and that Positive Thinking. Make sure you do have that Support. We do have to lean some new Coping Skills toward Life. Life will have it's ups & downs but dealing with them clean & sober is the way to go!
Bless

[EvolverU]

I know I've been away J, but I just read through your thread & wanted you know that I'm rising to my feet & applauding thunderously. So, darn proud of you! Congrats on day 20.

Well Done, my friend!!

[beatbutnotbroken]

20 days clean and going strong!! :-)

[sugey80]

Ayuda por favor

[atthebeach]

a beautiful post josh.
I am very proud of you.
so happy for you and your family.
you are a great husband and father.
you are going to be just fine.
making amends is a wonderful thing.
congrats on the first 12 days of the rest of your life.
be blessed my friend,
I will be praying for you and your family,
keep the faith,
hugs,
Debbie